CTB Dream

CTB Dream

Injury damage disabl hard talk no argu make fun et
Sep 17, 2022
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norm ppl no undrstd this me diff this me no same any ppl no undrstd me brain diff me no same any, ppl think platiud ppl suprfc ppl no undrstd cmplx ppl think scnrio hpn say platiud movon platiud etc this species rly ape rly rly ape , ,
this ppl no know any this neuro this cmplx, ya this ppl no undrstd me no see crtn prsn me no talk crtn prsn me llse brain part, ya this rltyyy ya this hpn ppl no undrstd ,hpn me keep lose hpn vege potat evn forum no post, ya this rlty hpn ppl lose scnrio lose brain ya me tell exct this me injury damage alws same thing scnrii rpt ya ya me no brain me no same any,

think ya tell u hpn injury damage lose all all frnd no talk evn this mean lose brain part this nobod care nobod know nobod undrstd no any, keep say come mayb redc dtriort nobod care, ya rly ape scum me say come come nobod come, scum species ape species brainle species, imgn aftr hpn many many keep lose keep lose keep lose, ya imgn evn see girl no psbl ya imgn injury damage add no see girl this lose brain big lose no stop lose, ya keep dtriort me brain no wrk this unvrs awfl, me want 0.0000001% hpy this unvrs no do, rly awfl lif ya wat resn stay ,

norm ppl no undrstd this norm ppl no undrstd me out spacetim me no this tmln me no slf no any me no brain me keep lose brain scum ape no undrstd this rly lone exp, this lif all wrng
this rly awfl lif ppl no undrstd no any this all nonsns, this prisn this trap no psbl do any no able do any
 
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Shrooms

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Hi, I tried to read through but I'm sorry that I am unable to understand nor grasp how your feeling based off your words. so if you would let me spread your message but letting me fill in the spaces that seem too complex for most people I would be beyond happy for others to understand what your trying to say.

The redone "CTB Dream" struggles and annoyances from lack of understanding of/from others around them.

Normal people don't understand this. I'm different; my brain is different, and I'm not like anyone else. People don't understand me. They think in platitudes and are superficial. They don't grasp complex situations. When something happens, they just say a platitude and move on. This species is really like apes.
These people don't know anything about neurology or complexity. They don't understand that if I can't see or talk to certain people, I lose parts of my brain. This is reality for me, but people don't understand. It keeps happening—I keep losing parts of myself. Even on forums, I can't post. This is reality: people lose scenarios and lose their brains. I've told them exactly what happens with my injury and damage, but it's always the same scenario repeating. I feel like I have no brain; I'm not the same as anyone else.
Think about it: I tell you what happens with injury and damage—I lose everything, all friends stop talking to me, and even this means losing parts of my brain. Nobody cares, nobody knows, nobody understands anything. I keep saying maybe things will improve or deteriorate less, but nobody cares. This species is really like scum apes—when I call for help, nobody comes.
Imagine after it happens many times: you keep losing everything over and over again. Imagine not even being able to see a girl—that's not possible for me anymore because of the injury and damage. It's a big loss that never stops. My brain keeps deteriorating; it doesn't work in this awful universe. I just want a tiny bit of happiness, but this universe doesn't allow it. Life is really awful—what reason is there to stay?
Normal people don't understand this; they don't understand that I'm out of sync with space-time. I'm not in this timeline; I have no self, no brain—I keep losing my mind. People like scum apes don't understand this lonely experience. This life is all wrong.
This is a really awful life—people don't understand anything about it. It's all nonsense—this is a prison and a trap where nothing is possible and I'm unable to do anything.

I hope this is ok I just feel you need more people to understand you deeper than just your words but your feelings.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I think everyone here feels a massive amount of compassion for your situation but, you're right- no one truly knows what it's like to be you. I suppose none of us know what it's like to be anyone else but ourselves. It's very hard to guage another's pain.

I'm so sorry that you don't get to see former friends. People can be pretty fickle unfortunately.

It's completely understandable that you feel so out of touch with the world given your situation and I'm so sorry. It must be so lonely.

I wish I knew things to suggest. I wonder if there are any organisations near you who work with people with your kind of injuries. That provide some sort of social clubs- even if they are online.

Are you able to play video games? There was a Netflix documentary about a severely disabled man who found a sense of community in 'World of Warcraft'. It's called: 'The Remarkable Life of Ibelin.' I don't know if that would be possible for you. I'm so sorry if these suggestions are inappropriate or unfeasible. I wish things were different for you.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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It's so inhumane what you have to endure. Life is often so unfair. I wish I could help somehow. :heart:🫂
 
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CTB Dream

CTB Dream

Injury damage disabl hard talk no argu make fun et
Sep 17, 2022
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Hi, I tried to read through but I'm sorry that I am unable to understand nor grasp how your feeling based off your words. so if you would let me spread your message but letting me fill in the spaces that seem too complex for most people I would be beyond happy for others to understand what your trying to say.

The redone "CTB Dream" struggles and annoyances from lack of understanding of/from others around them.

Normal people don't understand this. I'm different; my brain is different, and I'm not like anyone else. People don't understand me. They think in platitudes and are superficial. They don't grasp complex situations. When something happens, they just say a platitude and move on. This species is really like apes.
These people don't know anything about neurology or complexity. They don't understand that if I can't see or talk to certain people, I lose parts of my brain. This is reality for me, but people don't understand. It keeps happening—I keep losing parts of myself. Even on forums, I can't post. This is reality: people lose scenarios and lose their brains. I've told them exactly what happens with my injury and damage, but it's always the same scenario repeating. I feel like I have no brain; I'm not the same as anyone else.
Think about it: I tell you what happens with injury and damage—I lose everything, all friends stop talking to me, and even this means losing parts of my brain. Nobody cares, nobody knows, nobody understands anything. I keep saying maybe things will improve or deteriorate less, but nobody cares. This species is really like scum apes—when I call for help, nobody comes.
Imagine after it happens many times: you keep losing everything over and over again. Imagine not even being able to see a girl—that's not possible for me anymore because of the injury and damage. It's a big loss that never stops. My brain keeps deteriorating; it doesn't work in this awful universe. I just want a tiny bit of happiness, but this universe doesn't allow it. Life is really awful—what reason is there to stay?
Normal people don't understand this; they don't understand that I'm out of sync with space-time. I'm not in this timeline; I have no self, no brain—I keep losing my mind. People like scum apes don't understand this lonely experience. This life is all wrong.
This is a really awful life—people don't understand anything about it. It's all nonsense—this is a prison and a trap where nothing is possible and I'm unable to do anything.

I hope this is ok I just feel you need more people to understand you deeper than just your words but your feelings.
vthank wrt this this hav many simil no exct stll thank vry
I think everyone here feels a massive amount of compassion for your situation but, you're right- no one truly knows what it's like to be you. I suppose none of us know what it's like to be anyone else but ourselves. It's very hard to guage another's pain.

I'm so sorry that you don't get to see former friends. People can be pretty fickle unfortunately.

It's completely understandable that you feel so out of touch with the world given your situation and I'm so sorry. It must be so lonely.

I wish I knew things to suggest. I wonder if there are any organisations near you who work with people with your kind of injuries. That provide some sort of social clubs- even if they are online.

Are you able to play video games? There was a Netflix documentary about a severely disabled man who found a sense of community in 'World of Warcraft'. It's called: 'The Remarkable Life of Ibelin.' I don't know if that would be possible for you. I'm so sorry if these suggestions are inappropriate or unfeasible. I wish things were different for you.
vthank ya this rly unq, ya this human rly awfl species all do same no undrstd lev etc ,ya v lony exp, this no hav any hlp no psbl, ya can play game anime etc prblm vslow also vhard cnct brain no wrk, ya stll play no wry ok sgst prblm me vslow also me sad cz me play same no play me no me no exp, stll me play do rgrdle
It's so inhumane what you have to endure. Life is often so unfair. I wish I could help somehow. :heart:🫂
vthank nice wrd ya alws unfr lif rly crul
 
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CatLvr

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Aug 1, 2024
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I cannot even fathom how isolated you feel. I actually enjoy being alone but then that is my CHOICE, it is not forced on me by anything like what you are dealing with. I wish there was more I could do -- saying I feel for you seems so, I dunno, so trite, like I'm just saying something like "oh tomorrow will be better" or something similar.

You are stronger than I am, that's for sure. I have often thought, when I've seen your posts, that I have so much admiration and respect for you. Like @Praestat_Mori I wish there was ANYTHING I could do besides just post on an internet forum.
 
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