Ah, May. Next month. The month I ctb and end my miserable existence and finally make my exit from this cruel fucked up world. I have a lot to do, but I am content and I am at peace that it will be over soon. I know people won't understand, but it's not for them to understand, it's for me to achieve peace and end the life I never asked for. The life full of depression, anxiety and constant suicidal thoughts. It will all be over soon. I'm sorry for anyone I'm going to hurt, but I'm no longer living for others, i'm ending it for myself. I hope they focus on the good moments and memories. I can't wait for you May, you bring the sweet, sweet release of death to me. Bring on the peace. Bring on the blackness. Bring on non-existence.
LenkaX
Maybe there is a hope!
- Aug 14, 2020
- 366
It seems that you are determined. Good luck to you! I'm going to end this misery at the beginning of June.
Thank you. I've never been more determined and it's a really good feeling. Wishing you the best of luck in June, may we both find the peace we deserve.
Pen>Sword
Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam
- Jan 13, 2021
- 465
Best of luck in whatever direction you choose. I hope you find peace. Enjoy the remaining few days you have.
May I ask what method you chose, if you don't mind me asking?
May I ask what method you chose, if you don't mind me asking?
Thank you, I appreciate it. I crave this and crave peace more than I ever have in my pathetic life. I am using a gun to ctb
hahabye
always say never
- Sep 14, 2019
- 314
Pen>Sword
Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam
- Jan 13, 2021
- 465
That is neither safe nor peaceful at all. It can't guarantee death. I hope someone or something can change your mind with your suicide ideation, or at least your chosen method.
Either way, we respect your decision. Whatever your decision is, we hope it's worth it.
It feels amazing. At first it was very surreal, I have never felt anxious, but it felt surreal at first. Now, I'm just excited quite honestly. I have a lot to do, but the knowing it will be over soon is a huge relief and accepting it.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 37,058
I hope you find peace whatever happens to you. I know how cruel and awful this life can get. I feel the same way.
I appreciate that, a few reasons that I chose this method and I have the right gun to do a nearly guaranteed instant death with proper placement. The other method on the table was full or partial hanging, but the gun is my go to and plan.
hahabye
always say never
- Sep 14, 2019
- 314
Ah yes, it does feel strangely surreal! Wishing you luck and strength with all you have to do.
Definitely does, but it feels so wonderful to know there is a light at the end of the tunnel. It's challenging to take care of stuff when you have to act normal so no one suspects, but I know I will. I'm not letting anything come between me and death this time. It's my turn and I'm ready.
Sorry to hear this, pal, but you know you can talk to me whenever you want.
You're really cool.
Wish you lots of love and peace!
You're really cool.
Wish you lots of love and peace!
Thank you! Life is a cruel and awful joke. I hope to find peace and I wish peace for you and everyone, whatever that looks like for all of us.
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