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Roseate
Arcanist
- Mar 24, 2021
- 456
I feel like I'm stuck in this never ending cycle. I feel anxious, I feel depressed, I feel angry, and it's all just spinning and spinning. Its spinning out of control and I can't get a hold of it. And I'm trying so hard to get it all under control. And when it gets too much, I either grab the bottle of pills, any pills and just take a bunch of them to stop it all from overwhelming me. Then when that isn't enough, bleeding is the next step but when nothing is enough, I let it all overwhelm me and I wish there was a way I could just not feel any of it. Just something until I die. Because I can't handle it all coming at me like that. And right now I want to...I need to just not be in this moment. I just need a break from everything. All of it.