My SN just arrived.

[gallows_crow]

I don't even know what to feel. In some ways it's comforting to know it's there whenever i need it, but at the same time, it feels almost apocalyptic. Facing your own death is always a very strange experience i guess.

I'm not sure when i'll do it, and i'd like to acquire meto and tagamet first, but I now at least have a chance at death.

 

[WornOutLife]

I'd feel just like you!
Maybe kinda happy, perhaps kinda sad but deep down in my heart I would be calm because my way out would be just "there".

Hugs,

Matt

 

[FuneralCry]

At least you have an escape just in case things get too bad, you have a way out. I would be relieved, but it can be surreal thinking of our own death, I get that.

 

[EraseRewind]

Having a method does seem to bring a calmness, since having my methods I have felt as though I can try and face some of my issues with a sort of confidence, crazy I know. I'm facing some more medical tests and I'm relaxed about it, if they find what there looking for then it's out of my hands.

 

[UterEntonaur]

...but at the same time, it feels almost apocalyptic

I feel you friend.... I had that "oh sh*t" moment when I opened my parcel, and finally laid eyes on the vacuum-sealed substance, that would help me end my life this year.

It was scary and comforting; scary because I don't know what happens after I'd take it but also comforting because I finally have an option to leave this life peacefully