I am so anxious and depressive. I can't stand it anymore. I don't have the motivation to do anything but sleep! I can't be bothered with burden of existence. As I am a healthy individual in the prime of my life, it will take decades until I die of natural causes. Sometimes, I feel so impatient and I want to take SN and be done with everything! Why is life so damn painful? I think this is my anxiety, BPD and major depression talking. But, still the thought of my whole life in front of me fills me with me existential dread. HELP!!!
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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Life can be very cruel to us and it is exhausting. I relate to how you feel, I look forward to sleep and I dread the future. The average human life really is too long. It sounds wonderful to not exist, to have permanent peace.
As for the career path, don't be so hard on yourself.
Nowadays, there are lots of ways to make a decent living without having a degree or being a goddamn modern slave at an office.
For instance, you could make videos on YouTube or become a freelancer programmer. (You can learn how to do it by watching videos on YT or googling. One of my friends earns a lot of cash and he did this!!)
As for the "rest of the future", I'm scared AF of that too.
I mean, getting even older? Living until I'm 80? NO WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
Nowadays, there are lots of ways to make a decent living without having a degree or being a goddamn modern slave at an office.
For instance, you could make videos on YouTube or become a freelancer programmer. (You can learn how to do it by watching videos on YT or googling. One of my friends earns a lot of cash and he did this!!)
As for the "rest of the future", I'm scared AF of that too.
I mean, getting even older? Living until I'm 80? NO WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
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