Largeletters

Largeletters

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Jan 21, 2020
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My controlling, manipulative ex-girlfriend attempted to contact me today. She sent me a text just saying, "hey." It showed up as an unknown number as I quickly blocked her number after I broke things off, as she was verbally attacking me. It's been exactly 3 weeks since I broke things off for good. I feel I will never escape her, even if we are not in direct contact she lives constantly in my mind, everything she did.

This sounds beyond sick, but I hope I can kill myself to prove her wrong that I will indeed succeed. I deserve to kill myself, not her.
 
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WornOutLife

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Mar 22, 2020
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Oh, sorry about that. I don't like controlling people at all.

Hope things get better somehow, dear.

Hugs,

Matt
 
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Largeletters

Largeletters

Alone
Jan 21, 2020
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Oh, sorry about that. I don't like controlling people at all.

Hope things get better somehow, dear.

Hugs,

Matt
It always seems like a stab in the dark, but I hope things get better somehow for you too Matt. I see the way you take time to write meaningful and helpful things on so many posts, and I want you to know that is a true strength.
 
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Aug 14, 2020
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My controlling, manipulative ex-girlfriend attempted to contact me today. She sent me a text just saying, "hey." It showed up as an unknown number as I quickly blocked her number after I broke things off, as she was verbally attacking me. It's been exactly 3 weeks since I broke things off for good. I feel I will never escape her, even if we are not in direct contact she lives constantly in my mind, everything she did.

This sounds beyond sick, but I hope I can kill myself to prove her wrong that I will indeed succeed. I deserve to kill myself, not her.
Prove her wrong by showing her you can be happy without her. I'm sure she did a number on you and I'm sorry she hurt you so much, but there's a lot of wonderful and caring people out there, who will love you and cherish you. Don't let her control you like that.
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Not Being

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May 2, 2021
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she lives constantly in my mind, everything she did.
Love is a mental condemnation
The problem is not the lack of a romantic partner, the problem is the need to need a romantic partner. If we didn't have that need, we wouldn't suffer.
I tried Mgtow, it helped me a lot, you gain more freedom and control over yourself (or at least it gave me that), it's not absolute but I certainly don't feel bad anymore.
I got to the point where I no longer felt bad about not having a romantic partner.
Now I feel bad for having that need, with suicide I will get rid of that need that more than bringing peace or happiness only brings unnecessary pain.

All this is my personal opinion.

Greetings
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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People are simply so cruel and can ruin our lives. We are cursed with not being able to forget anything, so time can't always heal. Does she not understand that you don't want to speak to her. Some people will just never get the message.
 
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Largeletters

Largeletters

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Jan 21, 2020
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People are simply so cruel and can ruin our lives. We are cursed with not being able to forget anything, so time can't always heal. Does she not understand that you don't want to speak to her. Some people will just never get the message.
Completely agree. I have no idea what goes through her head. I made it very clear my decision was solid. Let's just hope she doesn't harm herself or try to contact me again.
 

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