Discussion MBTI/Personality Type and Suicide Style

[DetachedDreamer97]

It's been a while since I've had something to say, and as always… I'm pretty singlemindedly obsessed with ctb. But I pose a question after having general discussions with plenty of individuals.

What is your MBTI, and what is your suicide style?
What I mean by "style" what type of method do you seek, and why do you seek that method? What is your attitude about attempting it? Do you plan, or are you impulsive? Do you intend to give life a shot after preparations? Or will you attempt immediately? When you attempt, are you decisive or will you struggle with that and abort the attempt because you just aren't sure you're ready to die yet? Do you have a strong will, or do you give up easily?

I'll begin.
I'm INFJ (Dominant Ni, Auxiliary Fe, Tertiary Ti, Inferior but somewhat developed Se). I seek a method that is painless and quick, with little to no risk of permanent injury, but due to my own circumstances like money and all that, I resort to improvising, which led me to choosing the yew method, which I've been working on for years. I originally began just ordering seeds but as I thought I had enough based on limited research, my intuition told me otherwise and I started looking deeper into lethal doses among other things and realized it's not that easy. I one day managed to grab just about enough seeds and leaves and I made a basic tincture with hand sanitizer alcohol, and while I could've lived on feeling confident in having a decent methods, I knew there were many flaws, and having a user share his experience made it clear, so, I've embarked on making a perfected version. Of course, due to my living conditions, I wasn't always able to work on that, so... I improvise cocktails and methods of my own, but in turn, I always come back to it and each of my other methods happen to me mere stepping stones to the real deal. In truth, as of now, when I'm finally no longer broke, I could buy Nembutal, or the DDMP, but the thing is, once my mind is set on something, I stop at nothing to see things through until the very end. And just doing that would be settling for less, which would be extremely anticlimactic. On top of that, when it comes to the yew (my "holy grail", I feel a sorta magical element behind it.
My attitude about attempting it lies in having a positive attitude and making sure that when I do attempt, I'm actually ready. Anything less and it would probably lead to failure and suffering, or even if I succeed, the negative state of mind could lead to a shitty experience if there is a life after death. I used to have moments in which I'd feel tempted to leave immediately, but ultimately (and strongly more so nowadays), I want to give life another shot. Though if I happen to find happiness, I'd still have to let go my earthly tether and do what needs to be done. Ultimately, with my nature and all that, I'd expect my method to work as intended, and that when I attempt, I will ace it in one go. That way, if I attempt and die, then that's how it's meant to be.

Your turn!

 

[tissosad]

INTP - SN, just because I can't get N

 

[nameeater]

isfj - i'm very impulsive and whenever i've attempted i've tended to just do whatever was available to me in that moment (partial, od etc) instead of planning it out long term despite that probably being the better option

 

[yive]

nothing personal, but i think that MBTI is a pseudoscience. i passed the test and i got: INTP. then i passed the test another day and then i got INFJ, and so on. i read the descriptions of the types and almost all of them suit me in one way or another. just wtf?

answering the question, my ctb style is more impulsive than planning

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

nothing personal, but i think that MBTI is a pseudoscience. i passed the test and i got: INTP. then i passed the test another day and then i got INFJ, and so on. i read the descriptions of the types and almost all of them suit me in one way or another. just wtf?

answering the question, my ctb style is more impulsive than planning

I mean… I kinda expected someone to say that. But I don't mean the MBTI as in something shallow like 16personalities where it'd mistype you. What I was thinking about mainly is the cognitive functions and how it may impact one's nature regarding suicide.

At my worst, I could potentially be impulsive… but my strong reasoning tends to stop me, as I don't want to be like my mother and I'm very aware of potential consequences.

Nonetheless, thanks for replying, well as your criticism!

To be honest, your answer might actually help me understand something as for the most part, this basically is a battle of intuition.
Ne vs Ni.

 

[JinZhin]

INTP,
while I can have my chaotic moments, I am not an impulsive person on a grand scale of thins, I'm much more avoidant and risk averse.
It took me a very long time to realize i actually want to die and actively do something about it - I think it has to do with tendency to doubt anything and everything, overthink and be generally fearful. I remember wishing to not be alive, fall asleep and never wake up - I think I tried to convince everyone and myself I'm not suicidal and unstable.

I really wish I could get N, or SN but as that is currently not likely due to inavailability / money/ logistics and it might get even harder to obtain in the future... I think I will most likely hang myself, I am currently doing research on it and I plan on trying to try and fix things in my life but I will ctb once I am sure I won't fail. I think I want to die also because I really don't want things to get much worse than they are already, in many ways - I feel like I won't be able to cope and it's better to leave sooner rather than later in that case.

What I'm afraid of the most is possibility of failure and having to keep on living with terrible consequences, that's why I want to do it right.

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

INTP,
while I can have my chaotic moments, I am not an impulsive person on a grand scale of thins, I'm much more avoidant and risk averse.
It took me a very long time to realize i actually want to die and actively do something about it - I think it has to do with tendency to doubt anything and everything, overthink and be generally fearful. I remember wishing to not be alive, fall asleep and never wake up - I think I tried to convince everyone and myself I'm not suicidal and unstable.

I really wish I could get N, or SN but as that is currently not likely due to inavailability / money/ logistics and it might get even harder to obtain in the future... I think I will most likely hang myself, I am currently doing research on it and I plan on trying to try and fix things in my life but I will ctb once I am sure I won't fail. I think I want to die also because I really don't want things to get much worse than they are already, in many ways - I feel like I won't be able to cope and it's better to leave sooner rather than later in that case.

What I'm afraid of the most is possibility of failure and having to keep on living with terrible consequences, that's why I want to do it right.

Interesting… Your response is kinda a game changer in my mind, and means I might need to do some thinking over. And I can understand the whole analysis issue. I wish you luck and should you have things set up, I hope you find a solution, otherwise… if not, then you've gave it your best shot. It's kinda the same reason I'm here to be honest. Not full-on, but similar.

Thanks for your answer!

ISFJ-T, the description holds only half true for me though. Getting different results each time I take the test, just as you guys already mentioned. But ay, it's fun to let a bunch of scale-based questions tell you who you are, lol. As for the method, hanging should do the job, maybe in combination with a godly dose of psychedelics or painkillers. Whatever comes across as most convenient at that point in time, really

Yeah, it was the same for me (I keep getting mistyped as an infp, when in reality, I just have a developed Fi). assuming you used 16personalities or whatever basic MBTI test. And you're right, the descriptions don't truly define us.

To type oneself a bit more accurately, keys2cognition would be one's best bet.

Also, I appreciate your reply!

 

[Skathon]

"[A]STJ" ("A" - "ambiverted"). Decapitation.

 

[kurisutinabestgirl]

INTP - My method is SN, for the same reasons most people choose it, it's a somewhat peaceful way to die, and the risk of permament damage if saved is basically non-existent.

I am both impulsive and planning at the same time.
I have always been impulsive at the core of my personality, and felt like planning is too exhausting, but thankfully, with time, I am becoming more and more the planning type.
So, my ctb might be tainted by impulsive acts, but the chances are low, if I can keep everything in order.

I have planned out the first part of my ctb, and that's getting the SN, and meto.
I will move on to the second stage, setting a date and a location once I feel like my time has finally come. And if I don't change my mind during the 2nd stage period, I will carry on and commit the act of ctb.
So basically, once I reach stage 2, I will already consider it the end, since I have a date and everything, so I basically won't really be giving life another chance at that point.

 

[Amumu]

INFP - SN - But I think MBTI (and analytic psychology in general) is like horoscopes.

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

INTP - My method is SN, for the same reasons most people choose it, it's a somewhat peaceful way to die, and the risk of permament damage if saved is basically non-existent.

I am both impulsive and planning at the same time.
I have always been impulsive at the core of my personality, and felt like planning is too exhausting, but thankfully, with time, I am becoming more and more the planning type.
So, my ctb might be tainted by impulsive acts, but the chances are low, if I can keep everything in order.

I have planned out the first part of my ctb, and that's getting the SN, and meto.
I will move on to the second stage, setting a date and a location once I feel like my time has finally come. And if I don't change my mind during the 2nd stage period, I will carry on and commit the act of ctb.
So basically, once I reach stage 2, I will already consider it the end, since I have a date and everything, so I basically won't really be giving life another chance at that point.

Thanks for your response.
I'm starting to see a pattern.

Correct me if I'm wrong, but I wonder if Ne (Extroverted Intuition) has anything to do with not being able to plan effectively. Being that it's a divergent function vs convergent (Ni).

This is especially the case if one has Ne as a lesser and inferior function. That isn't to say Si users are incapable of planning (they just have a different way of doing so, and their way of planning relies on what is known… until they're in the Ne grip).

What I'm hypothesizing is that Ne users are into experimenting and trying novel methods, but they aren't great at investing into the foundations of whatever methods they choose. However, I also believe that INTPs have auxiliary Dominant Ti (Introverted Thinking) to somewhat compensate… or make better use the Ne function (but that's just a conjecture). Which I guess is another thing to consider. As it may or may not play a role in decisiveness, though Te (Extroverted Thinking) is likely to play a bigger role. But that's likely for execution aspect.

INFP - SN - But I think MBTI (and analytic psychology in general) is like horoscopes.

While true, I'm not exactly talking about the shallow version of the MBTI, what I'm referring to is the 8 cognitive functions and how well you use it. Because I believe it plays a role in how you decide on a method, whether you plan, whether you execute or abort, etcetera…

 

[czx85]

INTP.
Shotgun to blow up my head.
Thought about N, but I'm so afraid that I would lose control to SI, and end up throwing it out, or calling 911.

 

[self.destractive]

INTP-T , my method of choice is SN. interesting thread! theres two other INTPs in here with similar thought processes to mine.

back two years ago when I was 17 and first heard of SN, i spent weeks researching on how to go about things. the suicide was planned months in advance, but i actually broke down and confessed on impulse (which lead to me being sent to the psyche ward and residential treatment center. spent half of 2021 in a facility.)
ive also tried some rather half hearted attempts at hanging via shoelaces but was either unsuccessful or talked myself out of taking the final step.
i have also considered the train tracks, and slitting my wrists (although this was back when i was 14 and incredibly cocky and did not fully understand that its incredibly hard to successfully bleed out like that)

its funny, maybe if i spent all those hours doing my schoolwork rather than researching exit methods, i wouldnt of graduated highschool with a 2.5 GPA.

i had an attempt earlier this year in march which was COMPLETE impulse, though. i downed all my antidepressants and spent the next day or so (maybe it was two?) in the ICU. memory is a bit foggy. i dont recall regretting it, i wanted to die through and through. i think me reaching out for someone to call an ambulance was done moreso out of the subsequent confusion of the OD than actual self preservation. i left the hospital wishing i would have just bit my tongue and stayed put. im not sure if i would have actually died to heart complications or if i would have just woken up a few days later sick as a dog though! not a day goes by since then where i dont wish it woulda worked.

i like the idea of SN because although its unpleasant, but not exactly painful. it also seems pretty easy to clean up in comparison to something like a bullet in the mouth, or jumping in front of an oncoming train. the only thing i need to carry this through is an anti-emetic that isnt just weed

 

[come to dust]

ISTJ
SN method

 

[Euthanza]

INTJ but I think it's technically irrelevant to CTB method preference; We're here because fundamentally our basic human's right to die is being denied by the system, so we must take the matters into our own hands with little knowledge.
Otherwise, of course N or DDMAP will be my choice since they are medically advised; or even better: non medical Nitrogenous Sarco, when available.

 

[charlotte_]

Im INFJ. I'd spend ages planning on a perfect method that is quick and painless, also kinda dramatic? if that makes sense lmao. I'd like to die alone, but in an ideal scenery and comfortable position. I'd prefer to leave a normal looking body so that people won't be double traumatized. Honestly, SN sounds pretty ideal for my fantasies.

 

[WorthlessCoward]

I don't believe in that MBTI or any other personality test, I don't need those kind of things to know who I am

(I say that as an adult but when I was a tween-teenager I was a Quizilla fiend)

 

[alonely]

ISTP - careful, calculated, planned. if i try, i will succeed the first time. i think the method for me is not particularly relevant to my type with the exception that setting it up and testing do not intimidate me, if the method involves such setup and testing. but i do have a preference for a painless method as many of us here do.