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Chili

Chili

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Sep 27, 2023
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Do you all ever just want to pack up all your shit, hit the road, then just live in your car, free, for who fucking knows how long. I have been seriously contemplating this for months now, but I always come to a crossroads: I need money (must work) and I have 2 cats (feel uncomfortable with leaving them, unsecured and in my turned off car while I work). I would also never give up my cats. Sometimes I fantasize about it, and every day it just becomes more and more appealing. I am saddled with debt and have no chance at living an easy life. What if I just left everything behind and traveled wherever I wanted to go? I also thought about going to some shit stain town, buying an RV, parking in a verrrry far and remote place and just living there. Rent free. Get caught? Cool, I'll just leave. I keep thinking about the logistics and how to make it tangible, just so I can escape my life.

Anyone relate or got advice? I'm on the line of seriously considering it and keeping it a fantasy, honestly. If I didn't have my cats, I think it'd be an easy choice. However, I'd rather die than give up my cats tbh
 
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RoadtoFreedomTwo

RoadtoFreedomTwo

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May 28, 2025
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Hey homie. I went this route as a last resort. Luckily I was able to quit my job in June, sell everything, and sleep in my car while traveling full time. It's been fun, but it hasn't changed my mind to CTB. I just recently learned that it's me, right? I'm the common denominator between my old life and this new life. Not having a stable home doesn't help. Feel free to ask questions and I would encourage you to try still, but no amount of weed, sex, food, etc. replaces whatever it is I may actually want or need to keep on trucking.

I sorta went off the rails and withdrew my 401(k) for disposable income and have been using credit cards like crazy ($20K+ in debt). I also had an ER visit that ended up being about $17K, but without any money, insurance, job, etc. they're never getting that back lol.

It's my birthday tomorrow. I think it's CTB day. <3
 
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Chili

Chili

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Sep 27, 2023
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Hey homie. I went this route as a last resort. Luckily I was able to quit my job in June, sell everything, and sleep in my car while traveling full time. It's been fun, but it hasn't changed my mind to CTB. I just recently learned that it's me, right? I'm the common denominator between my old life and this new life. Not having a stable home doesn't help. Feel free to ask questions and I would encourage you to try still, but no amount of weed, sex, food, etc. replaces whatever it is I may actually want or need to keep on trucking.

I sorta went off the rails and withdrew my 401(k) for disposable income and have been using credit cards like crazy ($20K+ in debt). I also had an ER visit that ended up being about $17K, but without any money, insurance, job, etc. they're never getting that back lol.

It's my birthday tomorrow. I think it's CTB day. <3
It'd be nice if I could just quit my job, but idk if I could and I don't have the money or cards to do it. There's also like only 7k in my 401k

Whats your opinion on my cat dilemma, how to keep them not too hot or not too cold in the car when I can't leave them to work for 8 or 4 hrs.?
 
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Hey homie. I went this route as a last resort. Luckily I was able to quit my job in June, sell everything, and sleep in my car while traveling full time. It's been fun, but it hasn't changed my mind to CTB. I just recently learned that it's me, right? I'm the common denominator between my old life and this new life. Not having a stable home doesn't help. Feel free to ask questions and I would encourage you to try still, but no amount of weed, sex, food, etc. replaces whatever it is I may actually want or need to keep on trucking.

I sorta went off the rails and withdrew my 401(k) for disposable income and have been using credit cards like crazy ($20K+ in debt). I also had an ER visit that ended up being about $17K, but without any money, insurance, job, etc. they're never getting that back lol.

It's my birthday tomorrow. I think it's CTB day. <3
I can confirm. I had a similair dream that i've been chasing for some years now which is to save enough money for a high end bike and bikepack Europe. I've alread bought the bike and all the bags and Equipment i need. I also did 2 separate 1 week long Trips already. I hoped i would feel happy but i'm just as depressed as i am anyaway, just riding my bike. But, i am moving and stuff, see nature 24/7 and Yeah.

It's not a Fix and probably won't make you happy, but you should always follow your heart and even tho my dream that i worked years for and finally achieved is not really making me as happy as i hoped, still i now have a bike, i can see the whole World and dont have to rely on Planes. I can always just say fuck it all and go on a long Trip. It's better than nothing.

I'm still going to CTB tho. Plan on doing it after my money runs out so like at the end of 2026.

I have a cat but i live with my family which cares for her its not my cat its theirs. Maybe you can give your cats to your family for a while or something?

Wish you a happy birthday tomorrow. Maybe wait until new year? Just to see the fire works a last time and shit
 
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gunmetalblue11

gunmetalblue11

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Oct 31, 2025
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Whats your opinion on my cat dilemma, how to keep them not too hot or not too cold in the car when I can't leave them to work for 8 or 4 hrs.?
Kind of off subject but I was on the streets with my cat for a while at some point. Ngl it wasn't always easy, after in my situation I didn't have a car, much money at all and such. But in desperation you find creative ways to make it work. So I'd say it's possible, but it will be challenging at times and I wouldn't take the cats without like in your situation the possibility to thoroughly think it threw. A simple example of a complication that isn't often though about is thunder, most cats get very reactive and panicked towards it, so in a car if that happens it cause arise. And if you are already stressed for whatever reason, it can create not so much pleasurable moments to look back on, even guilt for letting them through that in the first place. Also yeah if you are planning to work for long hours, leaving two cats in a car isn't really fair on them.
If you have family you are in contact with maybe see if you could place your cats with them temporarily until another solution comes up mid travel, or a friend. Depending on budget on some websites or apps people offer to take care of animals at minimum budget coasts to avoid loneliness but avoid owning responsibility of the animal entirely (obviously double check and be careful with such offers always for the safety of the animals).
Good luck and I hope you find a solution.
 

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