hi it's been a while since i've posted here. i hope everyone is well.
to cut to the chase, my suicidal ideation has flared up and it's really bad this time. i'll space out just thinking about how i could cbt when i'm working, with my friends and boyfriend. my life is in no way bad or terrible. i don't understand why i feel this way. i've been suicidal for almost five years and these heightened feelings of the need for suicide come and go, but it's bad when i'm in the thick of it.
i relapsed on sh maybe a week ago at this point? i don't know. i haven't cut since then, but i think about it daily. i don't know what to do. i love my life and the people in it, but i feel like i just don't fit anywhere. i am not good enough for the people i care about.
i'm not a bad friend and they haven't made me feel that way, but i don't think i'll ever be good enough for them.
any advice? or has anyone felt this way? please leave your two cents, i feel so tired.
to cut to the chase, my suicidal ideation has flared up and it's really bad this time. i'll space out just thinking about how i could cbt when i'm working, with my friends and boyfriend. my life is in no way bad or terrible. i don't understand why i feel this way. i've been suicidal for almost five years and these heightened feelings of the need for suicide come and go, but it's bad when i'm in the thick of it.
i relapsed on sh maybe a week ago at this point? i don't know. i haven't cut since then, but i think about it daily. i don't know what to do. i love my life and the people in it, but i feel like i just don't fit anywhere. i am not good enough for the people i care about.
i'm not a bad friend and they haven't made me feel that way, but i don't think i'll ever be good enough for them.
any advice? or has anyone felt this way? please leave your two cents, i feel so tired.
