Venting Is suicide my fate?

[Xaxysh]

I will be soon escaping an abusive situation and will be homeless, but I know even then I will be suicidal as fuck
Was I made to die by suicide?

 

[motel rooms]

Your father has been abusing you again for praying?

 

[lofticries]

I already know suicide is my fate regardless if hell freezes over and i find happiness. I do not want to experience dying of old age after some of the things i've witnessed.

and my fam on my dad's side live long (80s-90s) regardless if they take care of their health or not (smoke or drink).

 

[Sra_TZ]

As for me, I do feel like I'll eventually end everything no matter what. I escaped an extremely abusive home, I found a job, I found the most loving friend. Sometimes I ask myself, what else could one ask for? In the long term, I accepted the fact that happiness probably was a nonexistent concept.

So, yeah, I guess suicide is my fate.
Take care xx

 

[Xaxysh]

Your father has been abusing you again for praying?

Yeah, I'll be escaping soon but idk if it's worth it if suicide is my fate anyways

 

[Life_and_Death]

Yeah, I'll be escaping soon but idk if it's worth it if suicide is my fate anyways

I think whether or not its your fate is up to you. (This can be taken a couple of different ways) Personally i think that you are just getting out. It couldnt hurt to at least give yourself a chance. Are there any services that can help you?

 

[motel rooms]

Yeah, I'll be escaping soon but idk if it's worth it if suicide is my fate anyways

You're from Poland, right? If you're really religious, maybe you could become a Catholic priest or a monk. The Church is in a deep crisis in Europe & I hear they accept pretty much anyone these days. Just don't spread hatred against gay people

 

[Weary Soul]

I knew at 7 that I did not want to get any older. It was my birthday and I was walking out the door to the front porch and I felt this so strongly, I never forgot it.

Today, I wonder if it has always been my "destiny" or fate to die by suicide - that my actual purpose is to be a footnote or learning lesson in someone else's life - and I knew this unconsciously at age 7.

But who knows?

I am so sorry that you cannot do the thing you love. In my view, being able to do the things you love, enables you to survive this dystopian society we live in. (And I say "you" here meaning a global "you").

I can relate to being beaten for not following someone else's idea of who you should be, instead of having a parent help you be who you want to be (my father beat me too).

I sincerely hope that one day - you will get to where you want to be.
<3

 

[WornOutLife]

I wonder the same.
I think I realized my fate is to CTB when I was 12 because I just...started to hate life so much!

 

[FuneralCry]

Life really can be cruel to us, none of us here deserve the pain it gives us. I think suicide might be my fate too. Life has always worked against me and I've always had bad luck. Death has just sounded so appealing to me for most of my life.

 

[Largeletters]

I sometimes feel that suicide is my fate; I feel that I've been set up to fail and that the cards have been stacked against me my entire life.

Life really can be cruel to us, none of us here deserve the pain it gives us. I think suicide might be my fate too. Life has always worked against me and I've always had bad luck. Death has just sounded so appealing to me for most of my life.

I felt this so hard... I'm sorry you feel it too, it's not a pleasant feeling.