Discussion Is anyone else staying in bed most of the day?

[ChangeWaiter]

My depression caused me to loose all the interest in any type of activity. When I'm home (a room in a rehab is currently my home) I just lay in bed, most of the time trying to fall asleep (unsuccessfully) sometimes mindlessly browsing through YT shorts. When I was in mental clinic, they used to discourage us from staying in bed during the day, but this rehab I can lock myself into my room whenever I want, so I developed a routine of avoiding everyone and just staying in bed. I have an actual objective with that strategy. I want to develop a routine I can follow for the rest of my days. I don't feel bad enough to ctb yet and not good enough to have a different form of existence. So my weird strategy to come closer to the end is a simple routine, that I can handle any amount of time. And I think I found mine - just staying in bed whenever I don't have to work. My therapist would advise me to avoid the bed during the day, but that's where we disagree. Maybe I'm onto something here. If I just accept my own rotting away, while it's still bearable, then that could be a form of existence that could last long enough and stop me from ctbing.

I wasn't sure which topic to place this thread under, as I'm not really recovering or am I

 

[avalokitesvara]

Cheers I'll drink to that bro!

 

[ChangeWaiter]

Cheers I'll drink to that bro!

Cherrs bro!

 

[ForestGhost]

Yeah, I spend most of my free time in bed hugging a plushie (what I am doing at this exact moment).

 

[isolatedl111]

My depression caused me to loose all the interest in any type of activity. When I'm home (a room in a rehab is currently my home) I just lay in bed, most of the time trying to fall asleep (unsuccessfully) sometimes mindlessly browsing through YT shorts. When I was in mental clinic, they used to discourage us from staying in bed during the day, but this rehab I can lock myself into my room whenever I want, so I developed a routine of avoiding everyone and just staying in bed. I have an actual objective with that strategy. I want to develop a routine I can follow for the rest of my days. I don't feel bad enough to ctb yet and not good enough to have a different form of existence. So my weird strategy to come closer to the end is a simple routine, that I can handle any amount of time. And I think I found mine - just staying in bed whenever I don't have to work. My therapist would advise me to avoid the bed during the day, but that's where we disagree. Maybe I'm onto something here. If I just accept my own rotting away, while it's still bearable, then that could be a form of existence that could last long enough and stop me from ctbing.

I wasn't sure which topic to place this thread under, as I'm not really recovering or am I

Bed Rotting

 

[Hollowman]

LDARing is what I do a lot.

 

[ChangeWaiter]

LDARing is what I do a lot.

What's LDARing?

 

[JoysoftheEmptiness]

I've spent alot of time in bed the past week, I suppose a combination of the cold weather, my depression, me still mourning for Ema, and the pain from my spondylosis.

 

[YourLocalSadGirly]

I do the same thing I'll just lay in bed or sit at my computer for hours not really doing anything just kind of waiting for the hours to pass. I kind of hate it though I've spent hundreds of dollars on games trying to find something that will make me excited for once and I haven't found anything.

 

[Hollowman]

What's LDARing?

Laying Down And Rotting

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I struggle with this. Because depression wakes me up early, I don't need to set an alarm. So I laze in bed for an hour or two, ideate about ctb, etc.

It's so damn hard but you have to set an alarm. Better yet, coffeemaker with a timer. The sound, the smell...I'll get out of bed for that.

Next step is exercise. Out of bed --> coffee --> gym as a regular habit would probably cure me.

 

[MidnightCat]

I usually spend a lot of time in bed.

I wake up, I'd soy something for 30 mins... Back to bed for a few hours, rinse and repeat.

Might not be the best, but that's what I have energy for.

 

[ocdsucks]

I spend so much time in bed but don't get any actual rest. Just feel exhausted.