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Catpost26!
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- Jun 17, 2024
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My teeth, particularly my molars, are rotting out my mouth and many of them need root canals and crowns. I've been told that I need to get them treated "NOW" or that I could die. It is certainly true that dental infections can be deadly. They can spread to the heart or even the brain if untreated. They can cause sepsis. I've struggled with dental health my whole life. My parents never cared to teach me why you should take care of them. They didn't give a fuck about me and so I grew up not giving a fuck about myself. There's many reasons I have for beint suicidal and depressed but this one is mostly my fault..
It seems fitting that death from complications from a dental infection would be my fate. It also has the advantage of not looking like a "suicide" at all and its a scenario where I don't even think people will feel bad about. I care a lot about minimizing the impact/trauma that my suicide might have. My ex hung himself earlier this year and it destroyed me and his family ofc. Its a different kind of grief when you know that someone you loved killed themself.
I don't know, maybe i'm just being stupid but i've had a mind numbing tooth ache for 3 weeks now and I just don't have the drive to go get it treated. The tooth is broken and black. I take a multitude of pain killers every day to cope with it because while I hate myself, tooth pain sucks. But maybe just maybe, tomorrow i'll get sepsis and soon it'll all be over.
It seems fitting that death from complications from a dental infection would be my fate. It also has the advantage of not looking like a "suicide" at all and its a scenario where I don't even think people will feel bad about. I care a lot about minimizing the impact/trauma that my suicide might have. My ex hung himself earlier this year and it destroyed me and his family ofc. Its a different kind of grief when you know that someone you loved killed themself.
I don't know, maybe i'm just being stupid but i've had a mind numbing tooth ache for 3 weeks now and I just don't have the drive to go get it treated. The tooth is broken and black. I take a multitude of pain killers every day to cope with it because while I hate myself, tooth pain sucks. But maybe just maybe, tomorrow i'll get sepsis and soon it'll all be over.