Introduction

[Shadow777]

Hello everyone. I am new to registering but have been lurking for a few years now. I guess the reason I am suicidal well a lot of things actually depression and anxiety being the biggest ones also the loss of the love of my life. I have depression like 5 out of 7 days a week. And honestly I am tired of fighting in this life. I fucked up my life by not grasping at opportunities. Stagnating in one place mainly because of fear and anxiety. I am job hunting right now but am deathly afraid of it and I am just tired of the anxiety that comes with it. Also if I have a job which I've only had 2 I become more depressed even nihilistic and don't know how to deal with those stresses. I feel like I am on a line between wanting to fight for my future and just giving up and ending it. All of these things contribute to me being suicidal. So yea I have ADHD GAD and Depression. Pretty much all I have to say for now.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

First of all, welcome to our community. I am sorry it is not for the best reasons but I hope you will find understanding and affection here. It is a relief to feel that, unfortunately, there are more people who feel the same way we do but understand us for it. I'm so sorry for your suffering. Life can be truly unfair. I hope you find peace in whatever you decide to do.

 

[LivideLamb]

Welcome Shadow777! I'm sorry that you're feeling this way. We shouldn't have to suffer in life, it seems so unfair.

I feel like I am on a line between wanting to fight for my future and just giving up and ending it

I feel that to an extreme personal level.

You don't have to answer but have you ever thought of seeing a psychiatrist or a psychologist?

 

[Shadow777]

Welcome Shadow777! I'm sorry that you're feeling this way. We shouldn't have to suffer in life, it seems so unfair.

I feel that to an extreme personal level.

You don't have to answer but have you ever thought of seeing a psychiatrist or a psychologist?

Hi thank you for the welcome. I have seen a psychologist on and off through out my life. But honestly I don't open to them to the point of saying I want to CTB as the mental health hospitals where I live are absolute hell and I am not willing to risk that. Basically a lock you up and wish for the best situation. So I pretend I don't reach the point of wanting to CTB. They have helped to a point but my mental illness over powers that.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are so tired of everything. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

 

[Pain In The Ass]

job hunting

One of the most demeaning activities a Human can do

 

[rationaltake]

Hello. I understand the fear and stress of job hunting.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

Welcome to the club nobody wants to join.

Come on in and look around. This is a friendly and (sometimes surprisingly) reassuring place where you can share whatever you're feeling.

As a group, we're good listeners and lots of folks will be able to relate to what you're going through.

Pull up a metaphorical chair and make yourself at home.

 

[LivideLamb]

Hi thank you for the welcome. I have seen a psychologist on and off through out my life. But honestly I don't open to them to the point of saying I want to CTB as the mental health hospitals where I live are absolute hell and I am not willing to risk that. Basically a lock you up and wish for the best situation. So I pretend I don't reach the point of wanting to CTB. They have helped to a point but my mental illness over powers that.

Absolutely understandable. Seeing a psychologist to help is like a double-edged knife. You can get so much out of it, yet they'll lock you up the second they learn about self-harm or any heavy stuff.
Sad that we can't even open up honestly to professionals.

Wishing you luck!

 

[Shadow777]

Absolutely understandable. Seeing a psychologist to help is like a double-edged knife. You can get so much out of it, yet they'll lock you up the second they learn about self-harm or any heavy stuff.
Sad that we can't even open up honestly to professionals.

Wishing you luck!

So true, I try to use the tools they provide and leave it at that. And thank you It is much appreciated