I'm such a burden

[kmycluisfe]

The girl I love told me she cry often because of me. Because I keep crying about my problem to her without trying her solution.

But it's so damn hard, I can't communicate with other people. It's so funking hard...

She just told me she want to die, she doesn't want to speak to me.

I just wanted some support, that's why I kept telling her about my proble. She is the only one I feel listened.

How can I not wish to die, I'm just a burden. Even for the person I care the most I made her suffer.

Fml.

I hate myself.

 

[mattoman]

Is her solution something you really can't do or try? You're not a burden, I'm sure she's just worried about you. Does she love you back? If she's the only one that listened, that's a lot too.

 

[kmycluisfe]

Is her solution something you really can't do or try? You're not a burden, I'm sure she's just worried about you. Does she love you back? If she's the only one that listened, that's a lot too.

Her solution is to face them, tell them about what is hard for me because I have to live with people that just don't give a fuck about other people they make noise until very late, they are so egoistic

But I'm anxious, I don't speak about anything it's so hard to face someone and tell them something. They are having fun I'm just feeling like a piece of shit if I tell them to stop. My heart beat so fast just thinking about speaking to someone, and trying to face someone is even harder. She knows I'm shy and anxious.

Yes she loves me back and yes she is the only one who listen. Before her I would make post here. Or I would speak to myself, imagine myself speak to them the best way possible. I just feel good with her, she listen to me. I can finally speak about my feeling.

And now my feeling are hurting her. I feel so bad

 

[mattoman]

Her solution is to face them, tell them about what is hard for me because I have to live with people that just don't give a fuck about other people they make noise until very late, they are so egoistic

But I'm anxious, I don't speak about anything it's so hard to face someone and tell them something. They are having fun I'm just feeling like a piece of shit if I tell them to stop. My heart beat so fast just thinking about speaking to someone, and trying to face someone is even harder. She knows I'm shy and anxious.

Yes she loves me back and yes she is the only one who listen. Before her I would make post here. Or I would speak to myself, imagine myself speak to them the best way possible. I just feel good with her, she listen to me. I can finally speak about my feeling.

And now my feeling are hurting her. I feel so bad

I get what you're feeling. Some people are egoistic and it fucking sucks.

It's good that you could open up to her in person, that shows some progression. She makes you feel good and you can talk to her about anything, dude, I'm very happy for you about that, that's awesome.

I don't know what problems you are facing, and you don't need to tell me, but are those something that would really turn your life around in a bad way? Or could they be for good if you faced those? Facing problems is really hard. I'm no psychologist (thank god) but if they are something you can face and maybe solve that way, I'd suggest it.

I've had issues I have faced, but they didn't solve, so it was "well, I've faced these now." So it always doesn't work like that.

I hope you'll find a solution, one way or another

 

[kmycluisfe]

I get what you're feeling. Some people are egoistic and it fucking sucks.

It's good that you could open up to her in person, that shows some progression. She makes you feel good and you can talk to her about anything, dude, I'm very happy for you about that, that's awesome.

I don't know what problems you are facing, and you don't need to tell me, but are those something that would really turn your life around in a bad way? Or could they be for good if you faced those? Facing problems is really hard. I'm no psychologist (thank god) but if they are something you can face and maybe solve that way, I'd suggest it.

I've had issues I have faced, but they didn't solve, so it was "well, I've faced these now." So it always doesn't work like that.

I hope you'll find a solution, one way or another

I made this post that explain what I tell her

Thread 'Long-distance relationship struggle' https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/long-distance-relationship-struggle.188116/

And I also have problem with my family, don't have great relation with them. Social anxiety, maybe depression as explained in the other thread, school

Sorry I might don't have the energy to explain everything. But yeah most of it are though to face.

Thank you

 

[mattoman]

I made this post that explain what I tell her

Thread 'Long-distance relationship struggle' https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/long-distance-relationship-struggle.188116/

And I also have problem with my family, don't have great relation with them. Social anxiety, maybe depression as explained in the other thread, school

Sorry I might don't have the energy to explain everything. But yeah most of it are though to face.

Thank you

I'll read that soon!

I'm sorry about your family-struggles, that sucks. Also the others that you mentioned, it's ok if you don't have the energy to explain everything, don't worry about that. I hope everything works out for you though.