doesn't it makes you absolutely angry, sad and frustrated? I mean why were we even born when this garbage was our life? I don't know how you feel about it but i see my suicide as the ultimate defeat somehow because the pain was too much and forced me to leave.
I feel so fooled that this shit here was my life. Trust me you're not alone in this feeling. But I think at least in my case all i can do now is to accept my fate stoically and just kill myself finally because i know 100% that there will be no light but only pure darkness if I don't kill myself and I am just 26 so if I don't ctb its well possible that I could continue suffering in this terrible life for the next 50+ years . No I don't want to be on earth in the 2030's, 2040's , 2050's etc….