Venting im ready to die and a lack of a method is so frustrating

[JessIsAlive]

i just want to get SN so bad its the perfect method for me and I'm ready to die as soon as possible

 

[mrtime87]

It's the worst feeling in the world as far as I'm concerned.

When you want to die, you live. When you want to live, you die.

 

[JessIsAlive]

It's the worst feeling in the world as far as I'm concerned.

When you want to die, you live. When you want to live, you die.

I just need to source SN everyone is so gatekeep-y about it on here and it adds to my frustration so much but i understand why

 

[mrtime87]

That's because it's been banned in the US. There was a source on Amazon but that is now gone.

The people who have it might have bought it years ago, before the government caught wind of what was going on.

I've contacted a few sources in China and Poland but don't get a response.

 

[Adûnâi]

One of the perks of living under house arrest in the Ukraine, I guess.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand that it's so dreadful suffering in this existence, I also just wish for a painless death, it's so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to die peacefully but anyway I hope that you find the peace you search for.