LOL yeah.. although im not determined enough for a battle i just tell myself i should kill myself 24/7 without doing anything about it... great way to make the worst of your life.
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Same! I think about killing myself every minute now, but I also think about my two children. Living without my son is so hard with the guilt is even more painful I can't take this kind of pain anymore. I force myself to live but I don't want to even get up in the morning.
At times I'll feel more hestitant towards my plans of going through with it whenever I see the current states of the friends I still have. Sometimes I'll feel as if I could maybe live for a bit longer and then reality hits, reminding me of why I wanted to do it in the first place.
Yes!! I go through stages of wanting to die often. I have had my SN for about 3 years now in a drawer in my bedroom. It's probably not even able to use now. I just can't seem to ctb as I have little dogs that depend on me. I look at their little faces each day and they are the only reason I haven't left this world by now. I fight with my mind often. 10000% when my dogs go to rainbow bridge I am outta here!
I would say that this can be a pretty common feeling. Wanting to die but also not wanting to die. Sometimes even I think about it. And, no, it doesn't make you crazy, don't worry.
Yes. I feel like I need to wait till my Dad goes first and, while I wait, I can't just let everything fall apart. So, it's all just reluctantly treading water for me.
I remember in 2020 I had SN hidden in my drawer. I had it for 3 years. Thought about it multiple times but never touched it, something always makes me go forward. The human need for survival is insane for some.
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