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Nitro07
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- Oct 24, 2018
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I've been working towards this moments for years, and all of a sudden every cell in my body tells me I need to give life another chance.
Let me introduce myself first. I'm Nitro07 (btw, not my real name.. in case you didn't know!), male, late 20s. I made this account back in October 2018. Back then I was already fighting my depression and suicidal thoughts for about 8-9 years, but I never really made plans to actually commit. That changed when I found out about all the different methods, including the exit-bag. Hence the name.
Anyway, I don't want my family to find me so I wanted to CTB in a hotel room. But there's no way to use that method unnoticed so I'm going with partial suspension. I have everything set up and it's ready to go. I'm trying to muster the courage to actually do it. All of a sudden I'm seeing positives in my life. Where the hell has that been all these years? Anyone else had this problem? I'm really struggling. On one hand I really don't want to die, on the other hand I'm too fucking tired go on.
I'm trying to get drunk in order to overcome my SI. Not sure if it'll work.
Let me introduce myself first. I'm Nitro07 (btw, not my real name.. in case you didn't know!), male, late 20s. I made this account back in October 2018. Back then I was already fighting my depression and suicidal thoughts for about 8-9 years, but I never really made plans to actually commit. That changed when I found out about all the different methods, including the exit-bag. Hence the name.
Anyway, I don't want my family to find me so I wanted to CTB in a hotel room. But there's no way to use that method unnoticed so I'm going with partial suspension. I have everything set up and it's ready to go. I'm trying to muster the courage to actually do it. All of a sudden I'm seeing positives in my life. Where the hell has that been all these years? Anyone else had this problem? I'm really struggling. On one hand I really don't want to die, on the other hand I'm too fucking tired go on.
I'm trying to get drunk in order to overcome my SI. Not sure if it'll work.
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