bumoshi
じさつ
- May 20, 2020
- 27
My mom found my cuts in my legs and I'm going to see a fucking psychologist this friday.
I don't want any fucking help, not from them, not from my father or my mother because is their fault that I'm like this, I'm literally so paranoid right know, I feel like someone or something is watching me, is 5 am and I can't stop smoking, I wish I killed myself before, I don't fucking care if they feel bad or whatever.
Is their fault that I'm fucking traumatized, what the hell is wrong with them.
they screamed, punched and broker my things, toys and didn't let me have friends as a child and they still think this is my fucking fault?
I hate them I wish I could kill them, I'm so fucking angry right now.
The images won't go away. Images of me driving the knife into their flesh continuously, fucking their body with the blade, making a mess of them. My head starts going crazy as my thoughts start to return. Shooting pain assaults my mind along with my thoughts. This is disgusting. Absolutely disgusting. How could I ever let myself think these things?
This is all their fault.
I don't want any fucking help, not from them, not from my father or my mother because is their fault that I'm like this, I'm literally so paranoid right know, I feel like someone or something is watching me, is 5 am and I can't stop smoking, I wish I killed myself before, I don't fucking care if they feel bad or whatever.
Is their fault that I'm fucking traumatized, what the hell is wrong with them.
they screamed, punched and broker my things, toys and didn't let me have friends as a child and they still think this is my fucking fault?
I hate them I wish I could kill them, I'm so fucking angry right now.
The images won't go away. Images of me driving the knife into their flesh continuously, fucking their body with the blade, making a mess of them. My head starts going crazy as my thoughts start to return. Shooting pain assaults my mind along with my thoughts. This is disgusting. Absolutely disgusting. How could I ever let myself think these things?
This is all their fault.