I'm becoming a bitter and angry person...

[Wolf Girl]

...and it's fucking awful. I've always got a sour feeling about everything and I'm starting to dislike everyone around me. I only have tender feelings for my dog and other animals now. I resent everyone and everything and I don't even know why.

 

[willitpass]

The longer I live the more jaded and bitter I become. I hate it. I'm not an angry person. But life is wearing me into a bitter person with little tolerance. I even have worn my patience thin for my cat. I feel horrible because I become so overstimulated so easily anymore that sometimes I (gently, I'm not ever rough with her) push her away when she just want to play or snuggle. I hate who I've become.

 

[lnlybnny]

I was thinking just the same today. I'm despising everyone around me including myself. I'm really bored of all this.

 

[lamargue]

ive felt like this for a long time

 

[rampantbugger]

there are so many reasons to resent the pain our earth is in- how we reflect and share, the responsibility of care and anger so tender, that is more than one hell of a question

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

I not only started hating everyone around me, but I also started the hating the (mostly wonderful) area I've lived in for the past five years. I suddenly couldn't stand it here anymore even though nothing had really changed.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Been feeling like this a bit lately too but in my case it's clear that the root cause of my anger probably has something to do with myself but I don't care to delve into it which just makes me more mad, and so on and so forth.

 

[lachrymost]

My untreatable PTSD makes me such an angry person. Before that, I rarely felt angry.

 

[Trav1989]

I can see where you are coming from wolf girl. Honestly though, I used to resent many people but as time goes on I've learned that everyone including myself is deeply flawed but some are better at hiding than others.

This makes it hard for me to resent others because I've come to the conclusion that none of us are even close to "perfect" so how can I hate those who have as little control of their meaningless lives than I do?

Suarez some go about their existences spreading more hate and vitriol than others and tear everyone down to their level because misery loves company but you have to notice such and avoid taking part in collective hatred.

It's really difficult to manage such because as humans are social creatures and it goes against our DNA but contempt of others leads to hate and hate can rule your life.

I've realized that we are all alone in this world and that this reality we've created for ourselves led to this.

I personally want no part in any of it anymore, I just want to be free. And if the only way to achieve freedom is to CTB so be it.