I'll CTB tonight, if circumstances allow

[a753]

I live with my parents. I've planned to CTB with SN tonight when everyone's gone to bed.

However, I'm very anxious that I'll fail the attempt. And I hope my SI won't make me more anxious.

I will be fasting soon. I will prepare two drinks, one with 35g SN and the other with 25g SN. I will drink the second one if I puke.

I'm already too anxious and nervous but I really hope I'll do it tonight.

 

[Lostandlooking]

If this is truly what you want I wish you the best of luck. There's no shame in changing your mind though. Take care.

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm really sorry to hear this.
Whatever happens, wish you lots of love and peace.

Hugs,

Matt

 

[Bullit]

The part about the parents bothers me. Do you want them to find you either dead or in extremis? A guy like me,who is alone,nobody would give a shit. But you will be hurting your parents.

 

[a753]

The part about the parents bothers me. Do you want them to find you either dead or in extremis? A guy like me,who is alone,nobody would give a shit. But you will be hurting your parents.

No. But currently I have a disability and they are over-protective. That's why it's difficult for me to rent a hotel room alone for example.

 

[pulltheline]

i hope you can find the peace you deserve, no matter what you decide. there's nothing wrong with changing your mind though! i wish you serenity <3

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you peace if this is what you want. I think feeling anxious is normal, I would be the same way.