chopinkms
i'm not alone anymore
- Mar 25, 2020
- 20
so, i'm not quite sure if this should go in the recovery or ctb side of things, but
hi
i'm sorry if this sucks ass, i'm really bad with words, grammar and anything to do with socialising at all, but i will try.
my life in this reality has taken me on a long journey, and whilst i was suffering, I found this forum. very cheesy, i know.
i look back on the posts i have personally made on here and some make me cringe, but some make me smile because i can physically and mentally see exactly how far i've come, and although i still can't quite see a full life here in this particular reality, i do not resent everything within it anymore. i care for everything i have come across: the good and the bad and i have found an aspiration that fills me with love (sorry if that's too ambiguous, like i said - bad with words).
i've met some very incredible people on here and i've also seen souls come and go. i am filled with some sort of bittersweet emotion when i remember these times, but i know that although the world may still see us as terrible and impulsive people, i still see that everyone here is just trying to be happy, even if this is considered a more unconventional way.
i am going to disable my account and bid goodbye to these forums today because i no longer want to feel attached to the negativity i was experiencing whilst posting frequently, i am trying to improve on the way my anger issues and autism affect myself and the people around me and truthfully i now have strong belief in greater things for me.
thank you?
bye
hi
i'm sorry if this sucks ass, i'm really bad with words, grammar and anything to do with socialising at all, but i will try.
my life in this reality has taken me on a long journey, and whilst i was suffering, I found this forum. very cheesy, i know.
i look back on the posts i have personally made on here and some make me cringe, but some make me smile because i can physically and mentally see exactly how far i've come, and although i still can't quite see a full life here in this particular reality, i do not resent everything within it anymore. i care for everything i have come across: the good and the bad and i have found an aspiration that fills me with love (sorry if that's too ambiguous, like i said - bad with words).
i've met some very incredible people on here and i've also seen souls come and go. i am filled with some sort of bittersweet emotion when i remember these times, but i know that although the world may still see us as terrible and impulsive people, i still see that everyone here is just trying to be happy, even if this is considered a more unconventional way.
i am going to disable my account and bid goodbye to these forums today because i no longer want to feel attached to the negativity i was experiencing whilst posting frequently, i am trying to improve on the way my anger issues and autism affect myself and the people around me and truthfully i now have strong belief in greater things for me.
thank you?
bye
