Method I think the day has come, I really want a successful method that isn't a gun or SN.

[yariousvamp]

I'm not an American woman, so I don't have access to the popular methods here like SN or guns.

The person that gave my shitty life a meaning and promised to give me a better life and live together in his country turned out to not be the same person that I thought he is, I felt like I was being deceived, but I won't rant about that or talk about what happened, I'd rather keep things private.

Now that our relationship may end, I seriously have no meaning in my life anymore, we already planned our future together. but I guess it's all going to waste. I don't wanna continue living a miserable ass life in an Islamic third world country, in poverty, unloved, surrounded by people that hate me and want me dead, my only chance of me finding happiness and escaping to a better society with the love of my life and create the happy family that I never had was taken away from me.

I just wanna know, which method will work best. Should I jump off a high building? But I'm afraid of surviving and ending up in a wheelchair. How long does the building have to be to guarantee a successful attempt?

Should I overdose on all of my grandmother's medicine? I'm pretty sure overdosing on medicines that is used to cure diabetes, blood pressure, heart diseases will have the opposite effects if you take too much of it. But again, I'm afraid of ending up surviving.

Should I throw myself in front of a train? But it would probably be too selfish for me to traumatize the train driver and the people inside the train, they don't deserve to see such a horrific scene, even though it may guarantee success.

Should I drown myself? I tried to drown myself in the past but it was too painful for me and ended up giving up.

Hanging myself is probably not even possible, I can't think of any place to do it, even the trees here are either too short to be hanged or too tall to reach it.

Cutting a vein and trying to bleed to death has like 99% chance to survive.

Since I already have an eating disorder, i think that maybe lowering my calorie intake to 100calories a day and only one cup of water everyday would have a higher chance to die from starvation and dehydration, but I failed so many times, even if i end up starving and dehydrating myself successfully, i always ended up binging later.
The chance to just collapse and end up hospitalized and survived is way higher.

Stabbing myself with a knife is probably too painful and with a higher chance of surviving and ending up having organ failure.

I really don't know how to end my life, I don't wanna live anymore, I'm serious this time, I want to die once and for all, I don't want to be forced to continue living this life, I want to live a new life when I'm reborn, even if my next life may have a chance to be just as bad or worse, the risk is worth it.
It'll be even better if I just stop existing as a whole. I hope the atheistic theory is real, I can't imagine living another shitty life, one is enough for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand just wanting to be free from all the suffering this existence causes, I also just wish to die in a guaranteed way in peace, it always feels so cruel to me how it's so difficult to be permanently free from this existence, I see so much cruelty in how there isn't the option for me to just painlessly die. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find what you are searching for.

 

[JustAnotherSadMan]

I'm not an American woman, so I don't have access to the popular methods here like SN or guns.

The person that gave my shitty life a meaning and promised to give me a better life and live together in his country turned out to not be the same person that I thought he is, I felt like I was being deceived, but I won't rant about that or talk about what happened, I'd rather keep things private.

Now that our relationship may end, I seriously have no meaning in my life anymore, we already planned our future together. but I guess it's all going to waste. I don't wanna continue living a miserable ass life in an Islamic third world country, in poverty, unloved, surrounded by people that hate me and want me dead, my only chance of me finding happiness and escaping to a better society with the love of my life and create the happy family that I never had was taken away from me.

I just wanna know, which method will work best. Should I jump off a high building? But I'm afraid of surviving and ending up in a wheelchair. How long does the building have to be to guarantee a successful attempt?

Should I overdose on all of my grandmother's medicine? I'm pretty sure overdosing on medicines that is used to cure diabetes, blood pressure, heart diseases will have the opposite effects if you take too much of it. But again, I'm afraid of ending up surviving.

Should I throw myself in front of a train? But it would probably be too selfish for me to traumatize the train driver and the people inside the train, they don't deserve to see such a horrific scene, even though it may guarantee success.

Should I drown myself? I tried to drown myself in the past but it was too painful for me and ended up giving up.

Hanging myself is probably not even possible, I can't think of any place to do it, even the trees here are either too short to be hanged or too tall to reach it.

Cutting a vein and trying to bleed to death has like 99% chance to survive.

Since I already have an eating disorder, i think that maybe lowering my calorie intake to 100calories a day and only one cup of water everyday would have a higher chance to die from starvation and dehydration, but I failed so many times, even if i end up starving and dehydrating myself successfully, i always ended up binging later.
The chance to just collapse and end up hospitalized and survived is way higher.

Stabbing myself with a knife is probably too painful and with a higher chance of surviving and ending up having organ failure.

I really don't know how to end my life, I don't wanna live anymore, I'm serious this time, I want to die once and for all, I don't want to be forced to continue living this life, I want to live a new life when I'm reborn, even if my next life may have a chance to be just as bad or worse, the risk is worth it.
It'll be even better if I just stop existing as a whole. I hope the atheistic theory is real, I can't imagine living another shitty life, one is enough for me.

Cutting a vein is not going to kill you in 99% of instances. The 1% is severing the femoral artery in your leg, which is almost always fatal. It's a painful way to go, but it is fool proof if you cut it right and you have 5 minutes alone, which is the estimated time it takes to bleed out.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

no one can tell you what to do. if you settle on a method (see the resources sticky at top of suicide section) people can link you to more helpful info.

it's about what you have access to and other factors, what feels right etc.

as a rule, cutting is a no go to ctb.

 

[newstart2000]

You could read partial suspension method, even a door handle can be done it.
Try to starve to death is nearly impossible. I tried two weeks only took water. Human body is tougher than our think, I only lost 5kgs, but felt weak and fatigue.