AmericanMary
Mage
- Apr 30, 2024
- 599
2 years ago I was in rehab.
1 year ago today I graduated from a methadone clinic. I was given methadone every day by a dr to combat a fenty addiction. I still have withdrawal symptoms from methadone to this day.
I have worked so hard the last 2 years to rebuild my life. I have a supportive girlfriend, I have friends since the first time since highschool, I have an entire community of people who support me. I have WORKED. I haven't touched anything other than weed in 2 years.
And it's all gone.
A boy on SaSu said something mean to me and I relapsed.
2 years of the hardest thing I have ever done. Gone. Just like that.
The first thing I did this morning was swallow pills.
Give it a month and I can almost guarantee I'll be a zombie again.
I will never go through methadone treatment again.
*if I missed my dose by 2 hours I was resllyyy sick for the rest of the day
*I can't sleep. I have RLS. I have weird stomach issues. I sweat sll of the time. From methadone. A year ago.
The fenty withdrawals were better than the methadone withdrawals.
I can see it now. My entire life ruined. Again. Everyone I trust and love. Gone. People don't stick around drugs when you're not fun.
1 year ago today I graduated from a methadone clinic. I was given methadone every day by a dr to combat a fenty addiction. I still have withdrawal symptoms from methadone to this day.
I have worked so hard the last 2 years to rebuild my life. I have a supportive girlfriend, I have friends since the first time since highschool, I have an entire community of people who support me. I have WORKED. I haven't touched anything other than weed in 2 years.
And it's all gone.
A boy on SaSu said something mean to me and I relapsed.
2 years of the hardest thing I have ever done. Gone. Just like that.
The first thing I did this morning was swallow pills.
Give it a month and I can almost guarantee I'll be a zombie again.
I will never go through methadone treatment again.
*if I missed my dose by 2 hours I was resllyyy sick for the rest of the day
*I can't sleep. I have RLS. I have weird stomach issues. I sweat sll of the time. From methadone. A year ago.
The fenty withdrawals were better than the methadone withdrawals.
I can see it now. My entire life ruined. Again. Everyone I trust and love. Gone. People don't stick around drugs when you're not fun.
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