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nextstepdeath
Student
- Sep 5, 2024
- 101
There is no scenario, no prospect where life can improve for me. If I kill myself I will cause pain to other people, something that does not rest easy with me. But the alternative is a life that will consist of endless suffering, endless flashbacks and memories of distress humiliation embarrassment shame anxiety, endless put downs, endlessly stuck between doors that will never open. I will never be happy. The longer I go on the more I suffer, the tighter the doors will get.