Venting I hate that I have an imagination but no skill

[gnarly]

I consider my mind to be very creative when it comes to things. I love drawing and music but have no skill or interest in doing them. And I hate that I don't even try. It annoys me that I can't share my thought or ideas because of how people have shut me down in the past. I'm quick to assume it's stupid or boring or maybe the world wouldn't be interested. I also hate how my brain tries to see its success. Like if I truly did do something I would gain what I want from it. I constantly see this version of me in a completely better life if I was just talented and truly interested in doing things. But I'm just blank canvas with black paint. Plain and simple.

 

[Darkover]

imagination is always going to be better than reality Imagination is not bound by physical laws or limitations, allowing for fantastical scenarios and perfect situations.

 

[Ameya123]

Relatable

 

[avalokitesvara]

Real.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Even people who do create are tormented by this. Unless they are exceptionally skilled, most of the time, what we envisage is so much better than what we produce. Being creative has always felt almost equal parts a gift and a curse to me. Like being permanently frustrated and afraid yet simultaneously, compelled to do it and utterly distraught when we're not. I don't think it's always the happy release people envisage it to be though. (In my experience at least.)