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Emilia1012
Student
- Apr 10, 2021
- 102
I am depressed after a very traumatic experience in which I lost my health.
I am trying really hard but can't be happy somehow . I feel so guilty of not being stronger, so weak and stupid and bad person ,because I should consider my family and live for them.
I just hate myself and want to ctb even more.
I wish someone told me I was amazing and strong(for still continuing to live after all) then maybe I wouldn't consider ctb anymore. But I hear from everyone only that I am weak and people are leaving me.
I am trying really hard but can't be happy somehow . I feel so guilty of not being stronger, so weak and stupid and bad person ,because I should consider my family and live for them.
I just hate myself and want to ctb even more.
I wish someone told me I was amazing and strong(for still continuing to live after all) then maybe I wouldn't consider ctb anymore. But I hear from everyone only that I am weak and people are leaving me.