resteasy3232
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- Nov 18, 2024
- 50
every single day of my life, my thoughts are consumed by her—the way i could have saved her, the moments we shared, and the love that was so profound yet so fleeting. the reality of death is incredibly harsh and unforgiving, and i can't help but feel a deep sense of regret for not being there when she needed me the most. i miss her more than i can articulate; she was everything to me, and the void left in her absence is unbearable.
i wish i could have shown her the true love she longed for—the kind of love that was free from hurt, arguments, and pain. she deserved a love that was pure and unconditional, and it breaks my heart knowing she didn't receive that from the world around her. i could see the light in her personality, and i wanted to be the one to nurture that light, to protect her from the hurt in this world. but now, that chance is gone, and all i have left are memories that haunt me.
i feel so lost without her. it's as if a part of me has been shattered, and i'm left trying to piece together the fragments of a life that now seems meaningless. everyone i know in real life is aware of her death, yet they act as if i've moved on. they don't bring it up, and i can't find the words to express my grief to them. the silence feels suffocating, as if no one can truly understand the weight of what i'm carrying.
tomorrow marks a month since she left this world, and i dread it. i don't want to face that day, the reminder of the moment everything changed. each minute feels like a cruel reminder of my helplessness and the wishes i'll never be able to fulfill. i want to scream, to cry out for her, to let the world know how deeply she mattered to me. yet, i find myself trapped in this cycle of grief, longing for her presence while grappling with the reality that she's gone.
the path of healing feels daunting, and i worry that i'll never find a way to move forward. the love we shared was genuine, but it's now overshadowed by sorrow and regret. i wish i could turn back time and wrap her in the embrace she deserved—where she could feel safe and cherished. instead, i'm left with my memories, my pain, and the unresolved questions that will haunt me forever.
i just want her to know how much she meant to me, how i would have done anything to save her. i want her spirit to feel the love i hold for her—always and forever.
i wish i could have shown her the true love she longed for—the kind of love that was free from hurt, arguments, and pain. she deserved a love that was pure and unconditional, and it breaks my heart knowing she didn't receive that from the world around her. i could see the light in her personality, and i wanted to be the one to nurture that light, to protect her from the hurt in this world. but now, that chance is gone, and all i have left are memories that haunt me.
i feel so lost without her. it's as if a part of me has been shattered, and i'm left trying to piece together the fragments of a life that now seems meaningless. everyone i know in real life is aware of her death, yet they act as if i've moved on. they don't bring it up, and i can't find the words to express my grief to them. the silence feels suffocating, as if no one can truly understand the weight of what i'm carrying.
tomorrow marks a month since she left this world, and i dread it. i don't want to face that day, the reminder of the moment everything changed. each minute feels like a cruel reminder of my helplessness and the wishes i'll never be able to fulfill. i want to scream, to cry out for her, to let the world know how deeply she mattered to me. yet, i find myself trapped in this cycle of grief, longing for her presence while grappling with the reality that she's gone.
the path of healing feels daunting, and i worry that i'll never find a way to move forward. the love we shared was genuine, but it's now overshadowed by sorrow and regret. i wish i could turn back time and wrap her in the embrace she deserved—where she could feel safe and cherished. instead, i'm left with my memories, my pain, and the unresolved questions that will haunt me forever.
i just want her to know how much she meant to me, how i would have done anything to save her. i want her spirit to feel the love i hold for her—always and forever.
