Venting I am scared.

[Lara Francis]

Is it fair to live in that place between life and death.?
Many people try to help but sometimes we can not and do not want be reached.
Recovery would be the greatest gift but seems so far away or not there at all.!
I even lie to myself saying tomorrow is a new day as if something magical will happen overnight - i am such a fool.
Maybe its time for my last drink.!

 

[Ln42]

Hi Lara, I can really relate to this, I even tried to explain to my care co that what type of life do I have when all I think about is death and yes, I could give recovery another shot but I will always end up back here (as in mentally back here not this website!)
It's so hard to explain. My brain at times is so conflicted and confused if you know what I mean?

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

Is it fair to live in that place between life and death.?
Many people try to help but sometimes we can not and do not want be reached.
Recovery would be the greatest gift but seems so far away or not there at all.!
I even lie to myself saying tomorrow is a new day as if something magical will happen overnight - i am such a fool.
Maybe its time for my last drink.!

Omg.. I feel the same.. I went to seek for help, my girlfriend asked me to go. But.. I feel like I don't want that help. I feel the same as you.

 

[Redt2go]

Is it fair to live in that place between life and death.?
Many people try to help but sometimes we can not and do not want be reached.
Recovery would be the greatest gift but seems so far away or not there at all.!
I even lie to myself saying tomorrow is a new day as if something magical will happen overnight - i am such a fool.
Maybe its time for my last drink.!

Recovery is possible it just seems far away like you said... If you're serious about recovery I hope you reach out

 

[Aaron Jones]

I don't want to give up but feel I have no choice my family are obviously not happy about it. I am hopefully getting some help this week but I have mentally set a date for Friday Night.

 

[Crazy I]

Is it fair to live in that place between life and death.?
Many people try to help but sometimes we can not and do not want be reached.
Recovery would be the greatest gift but seems so far away or not there at all.!
I even lie to myself saying tomorrow is a new day as if something magical will happen overnight - i am such a fool.
Maybe its time for my last drink.!

I kinda understand how you feel right now, and recovery seems like an oasis in the middle of the desert. I just wish you all the best regardless of your decision. If you want to recover then don't be scared to reach out and get help but if you choose to let go then i hope you find peace.

 

[Evan Horoszko]

Yeah @Lara Francis I can definitely relate. I just don't understand how if people would just like to die, why can't others respect that? We are not hurting anyone but ourselves.

 

[21Neberg]

Yeah @Lara Francis I can definitely relate. I just don't understand how if people would just like to die, why can't others respect that? We are not hurting anyone but ourselves.

Unfortunately that's not true for most of us. Though life or death should be 100% our own choice, our parents and family will still be hurt by our death.

 

[Redt2go]

Yeah @Lara Francis I can definitely relate. I just don't understand how if people would just like to die, why can't others respect that? We are not hurting anyone but ourselves.

Because it's like the most permanent break up in the world