I almost did it today

[NothingElseMatters]

Grabed my sn stuff and was driving to a isolated place but I just couldn't do it. Fuck it, I hate myself.

 

[fred farkle]

Its fine. Lets see how life goes from here.

 

[sunsetintehwoods]

Sure there is no reason to hate yourself.
It just means that it's not the time.

Hugs

 

[alown]

it just shouldn't have been the right time, probably a sign that you need to take a step back from the situation, you can take your time anyway, breathe and think, enjoy life, you have the remedy for leave this existence at any time, many do not have it.

 

[WornOutLife]

It's alright. CTB is not easy at all.
There will be another time. Just don't do anything hasty because there might be terrible consequences. I don't want you to go through the hell I was in.

 

[Sensei]

There's no hurry. As @alown points out, you have the means to end it whenever you wish. Remind yourself of that when you have a rough day.

 

[Ani198]

There's no reason to hate yourself. To ctb is an incredibly difficult decision. It just means it's not the right time, and in my eyes, it's better to be 100% certain instead of rushing into it. Maybe take a step back, evaluate why you want to ctb, and try and find something to look forwards to or some reason to stay alive.

Much love, I hope you find peace in whatever you decide. <3