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lovehate22
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- Jun 10, 2020
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so i have been fasting and trying to lose weight , which i know is counter productive when you also have an interest in drugs, but i am not claming to be a perfect person , i am into health and fitness , but i also have a dark side where i am depressed and lonely and want to escape through drugs, so i got some xanax through the darknet , now these were pressed pills ,and i am assuming they were as described in the description where i bought them which was 2mg alprazolam
by last wednesday i had been intermittent fasting for some time where i only ate during a small window , usually between 4 & 8 pm, and this seemed to be working well for me , i was feeling good, and i had a sense of control over my depression and everything else in life, and i was losing weight, that completely changed when i took a xan on that wednesday night (which i initially took to get some sleep) the 2mg pill completely blacked me out. So from wednesday to friday, i have brief memories of ordering horrible fast food through the app skipthedishes making several trips to the convenience store , and actually lying on my bedroom floor completely naked with a stomach ache and consuming the rest of the pills i had in my possession (which was about 6 of them)
on saturday when i regained conciousness , i fell into a deep depression again, i looked at my bank history and realized i made about 4 seperate skipthedishes orders each one totaling about 50 dollars (i gave a generious tip on each occasion) while i was at the convenience store i remember running into a guy who asked me to call him a taxi, and as i was making the call he threw up , and declared he had lost his phone and was fucked up (i guess he was more intoxicated than me at that moment even though i was blacked out ?) i remember talking to the taxi dispatch over the phone and being able to accurately give the right address and succesfully call him a cab....
so i guess the worst thing to come out of this is that i wasted a whole bunch of money and got a stomache ache, luckily i still have my wallet and somehow i didn't get robbed or made a fool of myself while in public, but im still depressed , and feeling down about my actions, and i have not gone back to feeling hundred percent , but i just can't believe xanax had that much control over me, all i wanted was some relief...
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