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Maria81
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- Oct 31, 2020
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I am not depressed but my life is a daily hell. have a 2 year old baby and it hurts me to leave him. I wish it wasn't like this. I wish I could provide for my baby.. but I know his dad will take care of him. I am useless to him. Useless to everyone around me. I have tried so hard to get an opportunity, but there is just nothing in this world left for me.
Please give me the support to have the strength to finally do it and it will all be over. I don't want compassion and support, I want the courage to end it my situation. How do people gather the strength to get past the SI and fear to die? I wish I was depressed because that would make it easier, but I am so stupid I keep thinking there is a chance for me when there has not been one for the last 4 years. I have worked hard and tried hard. Studied a master's degree, changed countries, tried to form a family and lead a normal life. But my partner just keeps blaming me for not having a job and no supporting the family. And he is right. I am a failure, I am done with living trying. I am done and I just want to go.
Please give me the support to have the strength to finally do it and it will all be over. I don't want compassion and support, I want the courage to end it my situation. How do people gather the strength to get past the SI and fear to die? I wish I was depressed because that would make it easier, but I am so stupid I keep thinking there is a chance for me when there has not been one for the last 4 years. I have worked hard and tried hard. Studied a master's degree, changed countries, tried to form a family and lead a normal life. But my partner just keeps blaming me for not having a job and no supporting the family. And he is right. I am a failure, I am done with living trying. I am done and I just want to go.
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