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Weebster

Weebster

Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
Mar 11, 2022
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I don't think I could continue if that was how I felt for weeks.
 
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ArcherFiles44

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Mar 20, 2022
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Yes that's exactly how it feels for me. It's a heartbreak that never heals. It's been a year now and something feels horribly wrong. I'm not healing. My "blood is not clotting" so to speak. I want to leave my body to escape this bleeding wound. When I sleep and dream I travel far, often I am in a different body or no body at all. I wake feeling so sad and alone. Sometimes I am so full of fear when I realize this hole in my chest. I feel like my soul is imprisoned.
 
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Weebster

Weebster

Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
Mar 11, 2022
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Yes that's exactly how it feels for me. It's a heartbreak that never heals. It's been a year now and something feels horribly wrong. I'm not healing. My "blood is not clotting" so to speak. I want to leave my body to escape this bleeding wound. When I sleep and dream I travel far, often I am in a different body or no body at all. I wake feeling so sad and alone. Sometimes I am so full of fear when I realize this hole in my chest. I feel like my soul is imprisoned.
That sounds terrible.
 
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CommitSudoku

never interfere with a lifespan reaping
Feb 12, 2022
524
Well for a while it mimicked it pretty closely when the person I wanted to be with ghosted me again. The first and second time she did that it definitely was and it took me weeks to return to a more numb state. I'm not sure if I'd say my depression would mimic that state though since I would be constantly thinking about her versus constantly being stuck on myself. But it all gets tied up to a greater sadness.

If I think of her too long I might go that direction but lately I've been more consumed with anxiety and then I also believe I might be in a state of grief sometimes. I think I'm grieving for my own eventual death sometimes haha
 
Weebster

Weebster

Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
Mar 11, 2022
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Well for a while it mimicked it pretty closely when the person I wanted to be with ghosted me again. The first and second time she did that it definitely was and it took me weeks to return to a more numb state. I'm not sure if I'd say my depression would mimic that state though since I would be constantly thinking about her versus constantly being stuck on myself. But it all gets tied up to a greater sadness.

If I think of her too long I might go that direction but lately I've been more consumed with anxiety and then I also believe I might be in a state of grief sometimes. I think I'm grieving for my own eventual death sometimes haha
Why did she ghost you? What happened? I'm sorry. That's my worst fear at the moment.
 
LucieInTheDark

LucieInTheDark

Menhera girl
Aug 3, 2021
70
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It doesn't take much for me to feel heartbroken. If I feel sad and my roommate isn't emotionally available to deal with my shit I start feeling like if the love of my life just told me they don't want to ever talk to me again for example. It sucks that I'm so fragile and petty
 
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CommitSudoku

never interfere with a lifespan reaping
Feb 12, 2022
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Why did she ghost you? What happened? I'm sorry. That's my worst fear at the moment.
At this point I've let myself forget enough that I don't even know for certain. Probably we were both too depressed and something stopped us from being able to confide in each other. Then she just stopped responding and that honestly broke my trust and messed me up to the point I worried everyone would leave me and stopped talking as freely or asking questions as freely. For the other two times she ghosted me tragedy was involved, she lost some people and I tried to be there but I couldn't be in person yet and it wasn't enough - she said that herself. Told me I couldn't do anything for her. It's funny she was my motivation for getting a remote job even though I doubt she'd want me anymore. If you can't tell I probably still have feelings lol

Why's it your worst fear?
 
Weebster

Weebster

Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
Mar 11, 2022
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Very often
It doesn't take much for me to feel heartbroken. If I feel sad and my roommate isn't emotionally available to deal with my shit I start feeling like if the love of my life just told me they don't want to ever talk to me again for example. It sucks that I'm so fragile and petty
I feel that too. Were you abused growing up?
At this point I've let myself forget enough that I don't even know for certain. Probably we were both too depressed and something stopped us from being able to confide in each other. Then she just stopped responding and that honestly broke my trust and messed me up to the point I worried everyone would leave me and stopped talking as freely or asking questions as freely. For the other two times she ghosted me tragedy was involved, she lost some people and I tried to be there but I couldn't be in person yet and it wasn't enough - she said that herself. Told me I couldn't do anything for her. It's funny she was my motivation for getting a remote job even though I doubt she'd want me anymore. If you can't tell I probably still have feelings lol

Why's it your worst fear?
I can't entirely relate but i sympathize. Because I only have 1 friend but I wish I could be with her. I've known her for a long time. She finds me attractive, but I'm not of her religion, I'm younger, and don't have much money. As a friend, she's amazing. Better than any I've ever had.
 
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ArcherFiles44

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Mar 20, 2022
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It doesn't take much for me to feel heartbroken. If I feel sad and my roommate isn't emotionally available to deal with my shit I start feeling like if the love of my life just told me they don't want to ever talk to me again for example. It sucks that I'm so fragile and petty
I think some of us just have sensitive hearts. The love of my life/newly ex just pretends like she doesn't know me after 15 years, like I never existed in her life. So I mind as well not at all.
 
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