Discussion how often do you look at yourself?

[dustbiter]

maybe an odd question, but how often do you look at your face and body?

i've gone 3 years without purposefully looking at my face or body at the longest.
when im feeling better mentally, i can look in the mirror or at my body, but sometimes it feels like looking at someone else since i spent so much of my life not looking at!!

usually when im in a bad state, i'll regress to not looking in mirrors or reflections at all. ill just avert my eyes from it :3 ive gone a few weeks now!
hate it uwu

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Not much - I look like I crawled out of a dumpster

 

[Phoebe11320]

All the time. I'm so disgusting, and I hope the more often I look at myself the more likely I will be to get rid of my disgusting body or just ctb

 

[motel rooms]

I'm not ugly, but I avoid looking at myself because I look like my father.

 

[Darkover]

not often i don't have a mirror in my flat i check my face on my phone before going out to make sure i don't have any food or anything on my face that's about it, i tend to take a few pictures of my self in a week

 

[xcaramel]

dustbiter, I also avoid the mirror. 3 years though is a long time to avoid the mirror but I somewhat understand the feeling of averting your gaze every time you see a small bit of your reflection. The worse is the moment of clarity you have seeing yourself in the black phone screen

the ascii cat you posted is so cute

When I look into it I feel strange like the figure gazing back at me isn't "me". Sometimes it feels as though none of what the mirror projects is the "real" me or reality itself.

Maybe that is me distancing myself from the disgust I feel for what I have let myself become, but either way it is an eerie feeling I would rather avoid.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I am not ugly but I am sick and my sickness cause my face to swallow and my scalp to swell and be patchy bald. It spread to my beard too. I avoid looking at mirror at all cost

 

[Elegy]

I only look at myself long enough to trim my facial hair, once a week or less, and check to see how badly infected my gums are, and, pick at the mole on my cheek, and then my work is done. The good news is, I did eventually pick the mole off. Ugly embarrassing big brown blotch growth right on my cheek, everyone could see. I thought it was skin cancer. But I was wrong.
I picked at it, and eventually it detached. No scarring either. I do the same thing with skin tags. Hurts a bit but the bleeding stops quickly. Also recently pulled one of my rotted molars with pliers. Needed a mirror for that. And thar she be. Whale of a tooth. Gonna make a nice necklace. Too small for scrimshaw

 

[blueclover_.]

maybe an odd question, but how often do you look at your face and body?

i've gone 3 years without purposefully looking at my face or body at the longest.
when im feeling better mentally, i can look in the mirror or at my body, but sometimes it feels like looking at someone else since i spent so much of my life not looking at!!

usually when im in a bad state, i'll regress to not looking in mirrors or reflections at all. ill just avert my eyes from it :3 ive gone a few weeks now!
hate it uwu
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Honestly, depends. I usually don't look in the mirror that much because i spend most of my time in my room. But when i do go outside, i try my best to look neat and 'perfect' because of OCD.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

As infrequently as possible. Due to many years of chronic illness, aging, genetics that have given me thin, sparse hair, bad teeth, a bump on my nose, eye bags (and from chronic sleep deprivation and allergies, and just never being attractive, I am UGLY. And like someone else stated, when I look in the mirror not only do I get even more depressed and despondent, the reflection doesn't feel like "me". A month or so ago I was at the dentist, as I had to go because of a broken tooth that I didn't want to cause infection otherwise I wouldn't have even bothered going, when they were finished they gave me a hand mirror to see the fixed tooth and I cringed at seeing myself in a clean mirror in a brightly lit room - I could see every flaw, how old and sickly I look, everything. It made me feel so shitty. I wanted to say I didn't want the mirror but they wanted me to see the work done, I guess. So again in direct answer to the OP: I look at myself as INFREQUENTLY as possible as all seeing myself does is make me feel terrible. I hate my diseased, ugly, disgusting body and ugly, aged, sickly, horse face SO FUCKING MUCH.

 

[ollo]

I look ugly, My sibling and relatives have similar opnion. I mean I have scar in the middle of forehead, two broken dead bunny teeth and also i used to have a tumor like mass in my right eye orbital. My self esteem had been set to low value, it's unconscious even if i see myself now in the mirror, i can't relate to what i see....

 

[Skathon]

At myself? Whenever I dream in third person and am in my own vessel.

 

[dustbiter]

At myself? Whenever I dream in third person and am in my own vessel.

not sure if youre trying to be pedantic about the ~*difference between the self and a reflection of the self*~ or not

 

[Skathon]

not sure if youre trying to be pedantic about the ~*difference between the self and a reflection of the self*~ or not

I am unable to look at myself in reality, I mean: it would require opening the skull of the shell I am trapped in, then extracting me out of it.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Gotta check to see if those incel gainz are coming along, innit?

 

[FuneralCry]

I avoid mirrors as much as I possibly can, I look ill and tired. However the true ugliness lies on the inside. Consciousness is torture and I look forward to the day that I will never have to experience anything ever again. I just want to be nothing.

 

[DannyP]

Nope I avoid mirrors. It really ruins my day more just by watching myself. I question myself how this ugly disgusting shit is still alive. I feel very sorry for people who has to see my face.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I only look at myself long enough to trim my facial hair, once a week or less, and check to see how badly infected my gums are, and, pick at the mole on my cheek, and then my work is done. The good news is, I did eventually pick the mole off. Ugly embarrassing big brown blotch growth right on my cheek, everyone could see. I thought it was skin cancer. But I was wrong.
I picked at it, and eventually it detached. No scarring either. I do the same thing with skin tags. Hurts a bit but the bleeding stops quickly. Also recently pulled one of my rotted molars with pliers. Needed a mirror for that. And thar she be. Whale of a tooth. Gonna make a nice necklace. Too small for scrimshaw

Good god. :)

 

[Bedrock48]

I look at myself a lot, mainly because of my struggles with de-realisation and my constantly shifting identity. It almost feels like if I don't look at myself I don't really exist or I'll suddenly change to someone different and be no longer able to recognise myself.

Also sometimes cause I've got a bomb ass outfit on that I like looking at :)

 

[healthrecovery]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/data/avatars/l/32/32712.jpg?163855544

 

[CatTheBus5689]

Pretty often, reminding myself of what I'm going to lose.

 

[Unicornsrnot4dislife]

I hate looking at my whole body. Nothing nice there. Avoid like the plague.

 

[Starryeyes]

Twice. Morning and night.

 

[creaturecomforts]

I try to avoid looking in the mirror as much as possible. Besides that, there have barely been any pictures taken of me since childhood because I hate the way I look and refuse to have my picture taken most of the time.

 

[Samn77]

I look like a turd but i keep looking at myself. It's almost a form of self harm I suppose.

 

[xLosthopex]

Whenever I'm in the bathroom or pass a mirror, or when I have to do my makeup, hair and outfit for work
I'm fine with how I look, although I do engage obsessively in 'bodychecking'(I have anorexia & bdd), so if I suspect I've gained an ounce of weight I'll need to check and recheck myself in the mirror or use my hands and fingers to measure different parts of my body to make sure I haven't gotten any bigger