How much pain are you in?

[Un-]

Living hurts. It really does.

 

[western_heart]

Voted "It hurts, but I manage" but some days it's more like "I can't get out of bed". I'm somewhere in between.

 

[Beachedwhale]

Sleep is the worst it's ever been. If I can't fix my sleep once and for all and get rid of these strange fatigue/flu like symptoms then I will have to ctb in the coming weeks

 

[lifeisbutadream]

Voted "It hurts, but I manage" but some days it's more like "I can't get out of bed". I'm somewhere in between.

Same here

 

[losteverthing]

it hurt's so bad living life like this...
i hope i'll be fine and achieve my dream !
if not, then i will be in this pain forever, which i don't think i can hold on for the rest of my life
so if i won't be able to achieve my dream i'll ctb

 

[whywere]

HI! For me it is a combo effect. I have 24/7 physical pain because my CNS (central nervous system) is completely torn up from the car crash and my depression sometimes, not all the time, thank heavens!, gives me mental pain and with the physical it is hell. One aspect that always makes me so mad at people, NOT our Global Family, everyone here is just so precious, all the other people that I come in contact with, like at the food store, drug store, they always make remarks about how mental pain and anguish is "all in my head"!! WELL DUH! It is and it is just the same as the physical aspect. I will never understand how ignorant and narrow minded some people can be, oh and also MEAN and NASTY. I truly feel for our Global Family members who are in such pain and I send each and every one a huge hug, a warm smile and so much empathy to try and help. We are in this TOGETHER PERIOD! Walter

 

[AintNoWayOut]

both physically and mentally, a whole lot, all the time.

 

[W’ren]

I chose i can't. Because that's how i feel all the time~ like my pain is trying to eat me alive and i am going to lose it and ctb in order to get away-
Like it's doing its best to drown me in terrible sensations..
Stop this life, i want off!
Some days are better than others.
I can roll out if bed rather than sit up and climb out for example-
But the fatigue! The pain and mental pain is exhausting… some days i'm in bed all day :(
I'm in my mid fourties.
This isn't right.

 

[ClairyFairy]

I stopped taking my meds because I thought I didn't need them. Started them again last night. Was so unwell. I thought I was faking but without the meds I can't move for the pain

 

[deleted]

I feel like a human time bomb ready to explode at any moment, but I only have the option to take it

 

[FuneralCry]

I literally find just being conscious and aware to be painful sometimes. I am in constant discomfort due to various health problems and there is always a feeling of dread lurking around in my mind. It's why death comforts me, I won't have to feel anything, there will be permanent peace.

 

[noname223]

For the moment I am doing okay. My big problem is the future. I am constantly worrying about it. I struggle with so many problems that I have no answer for. I am so desperate. Pretty sure I will have to ctb. Life is tormenting me. With every day I come closer to it. And I panic a lot. ALso professionals think my problems are unsolvable.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

I literally find just being conscious and aware to be painful sometimes. I am in constant discomfort due to various health problems and there is always a feeling of dread lurking around in my mind. It's why death comforts me, I won't have to feel anything, there will be permanent peace.

This is how I feel too. The constant physical pain is awful but I *think* I could manage to live life so much better if that pain wasn't compounded by the anxiety and depression and PTSD. I completely relate to that constant feeling of dread in your mind...that's me, too. Always waiting for that other shoe to drop, the next bit of bad news or crisis (that i can't handle, mentally or physically) to hit. It's been this way for years. I dream of the day I can finally escape ALL of that and just rest. I'm sorry you're going through similar. I hope we all find peace, in whatever way we choose or are able to, one day soon. No one should have to life this way. Why can't more doctors and people in general get that?

 

[WornOutLife]

"It hurts, but I'll suck it up!!"

It seems that's the only way I'll be able to live if I decide to live!