Discussion How many of you are here because of eating disorders?

[anorexicmustrope]

My life would have otherwise been fine had I not developed a severe anorexia at the start of puberty, for me, having to deal with lifelong consequences for a mental illness I had at a young age is not something I can live with, I feel less than human. I wanted to know if someone has a similar experience. For me, suicide is something I truly believe I have to do rather than something I want. I did have a tendency to isolate myself for a long time but knowing I'll never be normal is what pushed me over the edge.

 

[HangMan123]

Well, the fact that you put the word "believe" in there means that you committing isn't set in stone. (If it were, you'd omit that word). Even if you dismiss it as a coincidence or mistake, it's your subconscious feelings surfacing.
And you shouldn't be ashamed of that. It's good because you never truly have to do anything in life (besides die, ironically). You could run nude through the streets right now, but you don't have to because that doesn't make any sense. Suicide is the same way. While I don't disrespect your choice, you should at least acknowledge that it's not the only way out.

 

[anorexicmustrope]

Well, the fact that you put the word "believe" in there means that you committing isn't set in stone. (If it were, you'd omit that word). Even if you dismiss it as a coincidence or mistake, it's your subconscious feelings surfacing.
And you shouldn't be ashamed of that. It's good because you never truly have to do anything in life (besides die, ironically). You could run nude through the streets right now, but you don't have to because that doesn't make any sense. Suicide is the same way. While I don't disrespect your choice, you should at least acknowledge that it's not the only way out.

I appreciate the input, honestly that's just how I talk in my daily life, "I believe X" for my political and religious beliefs, and you're partly right, I reckon someone else on here may see my situation and not truly think this is something I should kill myself for, but it's just how I am as a person, I can't tolerate the fact that my shortcomings are completely my fault here, so either I cough up the ridiculous sum needed for treatment and procedures to correct every complication that came of this or I could ctb.

 

[fallingbehind]

Honestly, I cant say its the reason "why" but it has contributed to my general feelings of uselessness over the years I think.