Venting How do they stay so strong?

[lamy2006]

I'm constantly letting people down.
Myself, my friends, my family.

I thought I was getting better. That I had gotten better. That maybe I could be someone who provides value. Instead of this leach who just sucks and sucks and sucks and sucks and sucks and sucks.
Others are so strong, they provide something, they put up with my bullshit. They don't constantly reprimand themselves, second guess every action and then proceed to change nothing.
They don't constantly fall into the same few problems and not learn from them. I should know that even me feeling alright is temporary, but I still treat it like it isn't.

How hard is it to just not put yourself down?

All the praise I get feels so empty. Most of it wasn't deserved, most of my success is a fluke at the end of the day and meaningless.

I wrote that quote on 13/09/24.
I still feel that way. I'm only good at the things I'm good at because my brain is. It's not deserved. I'm not as strong as they think I am.

 

[Edu Ardanuy]

How hard is it to just not put yourself down?

If you find out, please, let me know

 

[Trismegistus_13]

Hey there, it sounds like you have some really negative thoughts going around in your head. I used to think a lot like you. I probably could have written this post myself a few years ago. If you don't mind, can we look at what you wrote?

I thought I was getting better. That I had gotten better.

For many people, mental illness is a chronic condition. It can have flare-ups and periods of remission. People can often feel guilt when they become worse again, but you did not do anything to cause this; it can just happen randomly.

Instead of this leach who just sucks and sucks and sucks and sucks and sucks and sucks.

This is a very negative way to look at needing help. Of course you take and take, you have a disease! That's what unhealthy people do to get better. Imagine your mental illness is instead a broken leg. Most people would not consider needing a cast, cane and rides as being "a leach." Unfortunately, we stigmatize mental illnesses as burdensome to others, when in reality, they are diseases like anything else.

Others are so strong, they provide something, they put up with my bullshit

It's a lot easier when you're not the one struggling with mental health issues, trust me

How hard is it to just not put yourself down?

It's really hard sometimes. I still struggle with putting myself down when I shouldn't. I'm doing my best to be mindful and stop myself from doing that when I realize. We're all going through our own struggles. Now, others are helping you. Later, you may be helping others. We're all pulling each other up so we can live the best lives we can. I really hope you're able to reflect on yourself and feel a bit less guilty for going through something many, many people go through.