Hoping i get sick

[karel1987]

I hope that i get lungcancer or another life treating disease. I think this is a easier way than suicide. Because you family can not blame you and if you don't do anything than you could get euthanasie or die. Are there people who think the same?

 

[Odwin]

I think there is alot of people thinking that. 2 Weeks ago i was on a plane I just wished it crashes.

 

[Lostandlooking]

It's tempting to think that way. I do it myself sometimes. But the reality of a life threatening disease like cancer is not very pleasant. I want to avoid suffering if I can. At the same time, I entertain these fantasies as well.

 

[TotallyIsolated]

I was hoping COVID might get me but I hardly ever see any other people to catch it from.

I fantasize about getting mugged or killed in the street at night, too.

 

[Worndown]

I got a life threatening disease and am no closer to the bus. It takes a lot of time and has many uncomfortable and inconvenient side effects. We all die...eventually. This is not an expedient method. Plus, they might be able to cure you. That would mess up the plan!

 

[Isisnefert]

Espero contraer cáncer de pulmón u otra enfermedad que me trate la vida. Creo que esta es una forma más fácil que el suicidio. Porque tu familia no puede culparte y si no haces nada, podrías recibir la eutanasia o morir. ¿Hay gente que piensa lo mismo?

Same

 

[karel1987]

I got a life threatening disease and am no closer to the bus. It takes a lot of time and has many uncomfortable and inconvenient side effects. We all die...eventually. This is not an expedient method. Plus, they might be able to cure you. That would mess up the plan!

I think that i go trough to the point that its not threatable.

 

[DarkWolf]

I want to have a heart attack

 

[lofticries]

I would only be okay with this if it meant I get to be euthanized before I experience any of the horrible effects of said disease/cancer.

 

[Lmd]

And in the process you feel terrible due to medication or the lack of it. Also aren't this place full of people sick who has struggles living and wishing they had better health? I think I would be in the same suicide spot with a worse life so no thx.

 

[TotallyIsolated]

That's a very good point, many of the members here are people who suffer with chronic physical illness or who have poor long term prognoses.

I can tend to assume that SS is about mental health but there are many reasons why a person might choose to CTB.

 

[karel1987]

In holland you can get euthenasie if you cannot get better. I think its a hard and mid-long road but its a certain death. Suicide is complex because SI.

 

[WornOutLife]

I felt just like you last year.
I wanted to get covid and die but guess what? I got it but recovered quite fast. I was like "Fuck this world and virus".

Now, I wonder if I'll ever get a terminal disease someday, ctb or simply have a heart attack when I'm 80.

 

[Odwin]

I felt just like you last year.
I wanted to get covid and die but guess what? I got it but recovered quite fast. I was like "Fuck this world and virus".

Now, I wonder if I'll ever get a terminal disease someday, ctb or simply have a heart attack when I'm 80.

Funny, you need to be 80 to have a chance to die from corona.

 

[karel1987]

I also hoped for corona but i dont got it

 

[Cashewmilk]

Yes! Because I just don't have it in my to CTB, hanging I failed so many times, SN and methadone or any poison won't work without anti-emetics and with my severe IBS gastric issues it will be so painful, I'm too terrified to jump, no other options. I think my house will burn down in the near future because we have a huge rodent problem and no one in this house cares enough to try and fix it (exterminator scammed us out of $700 and did absolutely nothing except useless poison that doesn't even work), so I've given up with it too, just let it all burn and go to shit, I'm dumping my art hobby and career, let the whole fucking studio burn or get destroyed, I don't care anymore. Hoping my house does burn so I can just stay locked in my room and hopefully die from inhalation. And then I was thinking about hanging again, like I wonder what would happen if I did turn into a vegetable or get brain damaged (which is more likely since my body just won't die I've taken enough drugs to kill grown men 100x) it would be better than what I'm going through now, where I'm enslaved and forced to do labour at home, it would be better if I was sick or injured then everyone could leave me alone at least in a hospital.

And luckily I live in Canada so I'm praying to get lung cancer from smoking or something so I can ask for euthanasia, hoping to get some kind of illness, anything is better than being a labor slave for abusive people and living in a house full of rodent poop inside the walls and ceilings and hoarded junk that is blocking access to half a floor (that we can't even get anyone to service our house for anything because of the hoards). My mom's house was literally all I had left going for me in my life, now I'm watching it crumble and I'm expected to fix everything when I am physically ill and weak... the homelessness is coming faster than I had thought. I'm literally living in a prison inside my own body, I'd rather be in actual PRISON for the rest of my life than live this life, but then I won't get to smoke my drugs in there. fuck.

 

[WornOutLife]

Funny, you need to be 80 to have a chance to die from corona.

Well, things are getting quite serious here in Argentina, people about 60 are already dying.
I'm still far from that but it's less than the double of my age lol.

 

[Odwin]

Well, things are getting quite serious here in Argentina, people about 60 are already dying.
I'm still far from that but it's less than the double of my age lol.

Yeah, sadly with 33 you are wait to deep in the safe zone, if you don't have any illness.

 

[karel1987]

The fucked up thing is that people from 30 die of cancer. And they wont to live, i want do die but i dont got sick

 

[watchingthewheels]

 

[Odwin]

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

I hope that i get lungcancer or another life treating disease. I think this is a easier way than suicide. Because you family can not blame you and if you don't do anything than you could get euthanasie or die. Are there people who think the same?

Yeah, you'll get rid of all the shame and you end up a martyr instead of a villain. You even bypass your SI. Convenient.

Also, terrifying.

 

[hahabye]

I hope that i get lungcancer or another life treating disease. I think this is a easier way than suicide. Because you family can not blame you and if you don't do anything than you could get euthanasie or die. Are there people who think the same?

I was thinking the exact same thing for many years! Over the last 5 years, I grew many lumps across my body and I was so so hopeful it was finally cancer. When the doctor saw nothing suspicious in my bloodwork, I felt crushed... Set my ctb date the same week.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

I would only be okay with this if it meant I get to be euthanized before I experience any of the horrible effects of said disease/cancer.

they sometimes do this (off label) to patients close to death with a big shot of ativan and morphine

 

[JustAMatterOfTime]

they sometimes do this (off label) to patients close to death with a big shot of ativan and morphine

Guess this is partially why you don't need an autopsy if you die in hospital when you are dying of terminal illness so it doesn't show Drs killing patients.