Discussion Honestly think i’m disturbed

[Miss clefable]

But I fantasise this daily
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/in-excess/201404/dying-it?amp can anyone relate in short I fantasise about being murdered to the point I would help him or her with killing me and getting away with it I want to be stabbed slowly and strangled

 

[End.of.the.line]

Do you fantasies about it in a sexual way?

 

[Miss clefable]

Do you fantasies about it in a sexual way?

Yes :( I really hate myself

 

[Gainax]

anyone who spends time on a suicide forum..is disturbed
i too some times dream of being mugged by some poor and victimized minority criminal and shot to death so that my death doesn't come as a suicide

 

[Roulette]

Kinda? Sometimes I wish my ctb method involved me being murdered although it's not sexual. I roam the streets a lot at 3am, for various innocent reasons, but i wouldn't mind finding a murderer somewhere lurking about

There was this lovely trans girl I knew, she wanted to be kidnapped and have her arms and legs cut off because it's the ultimate bondage. You're not alone Clef ♥ whatever floats your boat, no judgement here xD

 

[Miss clefable]

Kinda? Sometimes I wish my ctb method involved me being murdered although it's not sexual. I roam the streets a lot at 3am, for various innocent reasons, but i wouldn't mind finding a murderer somewhere lurking about

There was this lovely trans girl I knew, she wanted to be kidnapped and have her arms and legs cut off because it's the ultimate bondage. You're not alone Clef ♥ whatever floats your boat, no judgement here xD

Hugs thanks

 

[RainAndSadness]

I have said it a couple of months ago but I would actually like to be choked to death during sexual intercourse.

 

[MsM3talGamer]

I often wish I'd get shot in a bank robbery. Nothing sexual, just a quick painless shot to the head. Also, when I was at Heathrow airport and saw all those cops with guns I was fantasizing running towards them shouting "bomb". The idea was suicide by cop but with my stupid luck they'd just arrest me.

 

[Miss clefable]

I often wish I'd get shot in a bank robbery. Nothing sexual, just a quick painless shot to the head. Also, when I was at Heathrow airport and saw all those cops with guns I was fantasizing running towards them shouting "bomb". The idea was suicide by cop but with my stupid luck they'd just arrest me.

To be honest I think they would of shot you

 

[MsM3talGamer]

To be honest I think they would of shot you

I couldn't risk not getting shot though.

 

[Tyuiop]

Yes :( I really hate myself

You should read Justine by Marquis de Sade. It's a good book, should be arousing for some in here.

 

[Watson]

People are attracted to the unattainable.
It's like when people have fantasies about being raped or people in high positions have fetishes where they are humiliated and peed on.

Considering that you're suicidal, there is already an allure to dying.
The attraction to death is so strong that it becomes a strong desire / fantasy and for some sexual.

I don't think there is anything wrong with that.
I might not have the same feelings about it but I'm also not one to judge.

 

[Miss clefable]

I couldn't risk not getting shot though.

I understand

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

The promise of death can be intoxicating for those who have been traumatized by life. For some, it could possibly be seen as the ultimate high because there is nothing bigger than ending your own existence. In that sense I can see how things like death and sex could overlap. It's not all that strange, miss clef.

As for ctb by cop, it's only likely if you pull a gun yourself or else make some other life threatening movements. Or you commit a crime and are giving the police a run for their money in terms of a chase. Even if you do get shot, it's more than likely going to be in the leg or torso. Not recommended.

 

[MachineGunDani]

I'd b down for this! Lol

 

[Lefty]

Might sound weird, but I sometimes wish/think I'd be having sex with some crazy bitch and she'd stab or shoot me. I'd die from that.

 

[Empty Smile]

I have said it a couple of months ago but I would actually like to be choked to death during sexual intercourse.

You'd die happy then?!

 

[Pineapplecrown]

I have said it a couple of months ago but I would actually like to be choked to death during sexual intercourse.

Oh good one

 

[TooLate2582]

Yes :( I really hate myself

No reason to hate yourself.

 

[TooLate2582]

Yes :( I really hate myself

Do you think that edge-play would help; like a coping skill of sorts?

I partake in dangerous hobbies and work one of the "top 20" most dangerous jobs.

 

[AveryConure]

Nothing sexual, but due to the unfortunately high number of campus shootings now, when I worked at the university I imagined someone coming in with a gun and knowing I'd basically be fucked anyways I'd just tell the shooter to just aim for my head and get it over with.

I especially thought this A LOT cause I ended up seriously hating that job.

 

[piratemaverick]

I have said it a couple of months ago but I would actually like to be choked to death during sexual intercourse.

That's new. And twisted. But I can't help but think that is probably the best way to go. Incredible thought