Help please

[Paralysed&Poorly2]

Hi

I've not been here for a while as I have been doing well despite my physical health taking a big turn. Increasing one of my tablets seen to have taken the edge off.

So I'm in hospital anyway right now physical health not mental health but that always has a big knock on effect on my MH. I've been doing very well and managing but in the last hour it's just come over me and I want out .

I've locked myself in the bathroom so I don't blow up at anyone as it's not there fault.

But I think what tipped me over the edge is there not listening to me. I know my body

And I just can't stop thinking why did I ever think anything would ever be different
I just need to keep as calm as I can and not do anything impulsive as that never ends well. I'm fighting against every instinct.
I just need to keep as calm as I can and not do anything impulsive as that never ends well. I'm fighting against every instinct.
I just need to keep as calm as I can and not do anything impulsive as that never ends well. I'm fighting against every instinct.
I just need to keep as calm as I can and not do anything impulsive as that never ends well. I'm fighting against every instinct.

 

[whywere]

1st off I am sending you lots of hugs , smiles and support. I have BPD, in which one minute I am happy and the next minute I am real bitchy, so I can really relate to you on this. I have chronic pain from a car crash in 2015, car crash not my fault, and I have had a horrible time with the medical community, as far as they NEVER EVER listen to me. Like you said I know my body and I do NOT need someone in a white coat, who almost does not know my name, giving me a prognosis on me. When I read your post and I came to that aspect, I cried for you , as it is so terrible and it brought back so many memories of ego, snobby medical people. Please try, I know it is hard to do, and relax and regroup. I truly love and care about and for you and we can get through this together. Lots of hugs, understanding, kindness and SUPPORT to you!! Walter

 

[Paralysed&Poorly2]

Hey Walter

Thankyou for messaging I have BPD too so I'm really trying to keep my head on.

and it's proofing very difficult

I have just contacted the crisis team who have told the ward I'm on. And I'm now thinking why am I even still trying as things will get sorted for what a while and then what everything back to how it always is

being told my physical medical problems are very complicated . no shit

AJx
sorry to hear about your car accident Walter

has any physio or anything helped at all

 

[whywere]

I can truly relate, as far as my BPD, I get it under control or it runs it cycle and then back to the way it always has been. I will admit that I try very hard to glean something positive out of a bad situation, so when it flares up again, and it always does, I can try and put what I know worked from the last episode when my BPD goes into overdrive. I too have massive physical problems that are complicated as it involves my cns (central nervous system). Please try and relax some, have the crisis folks help you through this, I know that YOU are a strong and beautiful person, and I NEED you here as I truly consider you a family member. All the love and support that I have in the fiber of my body to help you. YOU are a loving global family member that is such a integral part of all of us here. Walter

 

[WornOutLife]

Hi! I'm really sorry you're going through this!!

You can count on us!!

Feel free to pm me if you need to talk!

Hugs and love,

Matt