Goodbye SS, thank you all

[Rue89]

Tonight I will ctb with SN. I want to thank everyone on SS for being so supportive and accepting me.

I can't handle the anxiety anymore. I'll never be able to live a normal life because of it. I'm also having a harder time with the threats than I'd like to admit, and I hate the feeling of being hunted. I'm ready to be free from it all.

Finally after over a year my mom is away from home. My brother is here, but he shouldn't be a problem. I'm so happy that I can ctb at home, in my bed. I'm not doing much on my final day, mostly cuddling with my cat and listening to my favorite music. I've been feeling a lot of different emotions today. Right now I'm feeling anxious, but also ready and determined.

This is my schedule. It might end up being later, depending on what my brother is doing at the time. This is central time.

9:00 - phenibut 750mg
11:00 - acetaminophen 1,000mg
11:15 - domperidone 20mg
11:30 - famotidine 40mg, propranolol 40mg
12:00 - SN 25g + propranolol 200mg in 50ml water

 

[SweetDreams500]

Goodbye and good luck!

 

[Pen>Sword]

I'm wishing you a peaceful road ahead. We respect your choice whatever it may be. Just be safe.

Anxiety is a bitch. We have the same issue. Remember that you're not a statistic; you're a unique individual in this world. You will be remembered by those people who love you. You are somebody to someone, and to us too.

Goodbye, @Rue89. Please be safe.

 

[Dead Meat]

I wish you a peaceful exit your such a kind hearted beautiful soul. May you have everlasting peace and tranquility

 

[Rue89]

Damn, writing and posting this thread just made this feel even more real somehow.

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm sorry to hear you will leaving this world, dear.

Whatever happens, I wish you lots of love and peace. It's been really nice seeing you around.

Infinite hugs,

Matt

 

[Somage]

I will be following a similar regime in a few days, just finishing off the last of my beers and drug stash then it will be time. I wish you a peaceful passing x

 

[wanttodie]

Goodbye have a safe trip

 

[nopointofliving]

Wish you a peaceful journey.

 

[Sakura94]

Hi Rue, I hope this is what you want and the thought of being free from your turmoil makes you feel better and you're leaving this life in a distraught state.

 

[Rue89]

I'm starting to feel really anxious. I just took the phenibut. I hope it helps.

 

[newave3]

It's fine if you change your mind. Come back to your online family here at SS and we will comfort you. If you decide to go through with it, I wish you everlasting peace.

 

[NoSurprises]

I wish you a peacefull trip

 

[death137]

Wishing you a peaceful journey

 

[suicide4me]

Wishing you a peaceful journey my friend

 

[Rue89]

Crying so hard right now. I just hugged my cat and cried on him and he left my room. Probably for the best. That way I won't have to make him get out later.

 

[WornOutLife]

Crying so hard right now. I just hugged my cat and cried on him and he left my room. Probably for the best. That way I won't have to make him get out later.

I'm so sorry, dear.
Please, if you're not 100% sure, don't do it!

 

[avoid_slow_death]

So, so sorry life has come down to this for you. Whatever choice you make, you know people here support you. No matter your choice. That said, I truly do wish you the best of luck and may you find peace of mind whatever you choose.

 

[lmplsss]

Crying so hard right now. I just hugged my cat and cried on him and he left my room. Probably for the best. That way I won't have to make him get out later.

Awww it'll be okay. Whatever you choose to do, we will respect it.

 

[Rue89]

I'm getting a headache, I suppose from the stress of this.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Deep breaths. Calm your mind.

 

[it's_all_a_game]

I wish you a peaceful passing. May you find eternal peace.

 

[Pharmaruined]

Ugh..it never gets easy seeing someone go .. we're here for you regardless.. , sending positive vibes that peace finds you whatever you to.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Much love, whether you ctb or not :)

 

[Birthinjune]

I'm getting a headache, I suppose from the stress of this.

If you're feeling unsure it's okay, maybe that's a sign it's not time. Talk through what you're feeling with us and how we could help ❤

 

[Rue89]

If you're feeling unsure it's okay, maybe that's a sign it's not time. Talk through what you're feeling with us and how we could help ❤

I'm just feeling very anxious. I guess mostly about the unknown. How it's going to feel, how uncomfortable it'll be, if there will be pain, what happens after.

 

[Somage]

I know what your going through I have been tempted to drink my sn since last Xmas but I keep putting it off even though my situation is declining further. Survival instinct is extremely strong and very hard to beat.

 

[nopointofliving]

Crying so hard right now. I just hugged my cat and cried on him and he left my room. Probably for the best. That way I won't have to make him get out later.

We are here for you, if you need to talk... sending you much love and hugs

 

[Im.so.tired]

We are here for you and support you no matter what! I hope you find peace and if unsure you can always postpone ctb and know it will always be an option.

 

[nopointofliving]

I'm just feeling very anxious. I guess mostly about the unknown. How it's going to feel, how uncomfortable it'll be, if there will be pain, what happens after.

Hugging you tight. if you aren't sure, don't do it please. We respect your choice and wish you all good