seasons4changing

seasons4changing

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first I apologize for my unorganized posts. I appreciate everyone who sent a message in my previous post you are all amazing people.

Just want to say I been fasting and got all my stuff ready. Feeling scared but excited that I no longer have to wake up in this nightmare.

I plan to ctb sometime in the next 3-4 hours. Just getting things finalized .

I put my method in a previous post but

1. Take 1000mg pain killer otc
2. Wait 15 minutes then take 3x meto
3. Prepare 3 cups of sn 35g in two because I'm a plus size girl
4. After waiting 40 minutes take sn and lay down

I'll probably post when I drink the sn not sure if I'll update after because I want to wipe my phone.

I decided to wear my favorite dress and gonna shower before hand. The shower calms me. My favorite YouTuber is playing a game I love. I appreciate this website so much. It is sad how harsh life can be for us.

I know some of us are spiritual and some are not. I grew up Christian and still hold Jesus close to my heart. I hope I see him . My ctb is not just to see him but to be at peace. I hope that Jesus holds me in his arms and tells me I did my best and he is proud. Goodbye everyone 💔❤️ and thank you to everyone on this forum . Whatever path you choose I hope for the best.
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

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Godspeed.
 
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I hope that you find the freedom you are searching for, I wish you the best.
 
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quietpill

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Goodbye, I hope you find the peace you're looking for ♥️
 
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sorry it had to come to this point, i wish you all the best and hope you find peace
 
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maniac116

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I hope all goes according to your plan & that peace & love find you🤗🤗🤗💔
 
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Next

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Dear girl, I think it's a pity that life has brought you to a point of killing yourself. But since your decision has been made, I hope that fate respects your decision and that you have a peaceful transition. With your Christian view, this will probably be something like the afterlife.

Arrive there safely and achieve deep satisfaction there
 
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cloudyskye

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You're very courageous. I hope you find heaven and peace.
 
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Peace to you. Take care on your journey 🌹
 
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Farwell. I wish you a peaceful journey and the ethernal peace you hope for.
 
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Thank you for sharing your story with us, you are a brave girl. May your journey bring you a season of peace:heart:
 
seasons4changing

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Thank you everyone. I am about to begin the process feeling scared
Ok SN dissolved and took meto. SN goes down in 18 minutes
Idk if I can wait the last 8 minutes I'm gonna drink the sn now
Took sn burning throat
Heart racing throat burned
Dizzy going to log now
 
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Nerves are understandable but just a friendly reminder that it's absolutely ok to back out if you feel it's maybe not the right time after all. Whatever decision you make, you'll have people here who will be there for you. ♥️
 
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Rest easy🌹 I'm sad that it came to this for you.
 
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I wish from the bottom of my heart that you find your peace..
 
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I hope everything went well
 
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Have a good trip. I hope you have found the peace you need.
 
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Wishing you a peaceful and vomitless journey.
 
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I'm sorry that this is what it has come to and I hope you find everything that you're looking. I know you will. Whatever you decide I hope that you find peace. Take care seasons4changing
 
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I will be praying for you. I hope your in a better place.
 
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See you on the other side!
 
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I hope that you are at peace now. Godspeed to the beyond ❤️
 
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I wish the best for you and hope that you're in a better place.
 
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Jesus will surely embrace you may your soul find peace
 
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I wish I could've seen this beforehand to send you best wishes again 💔

Wherever you are now, I hope you're at peace with Jesus holding you and guiding you to a peaceful afterlife 💜🕊️
 
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JackSparrow

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This is the method I had in mind, I intend to do exactly this, but a little more reinforced with the meto being ingested also 1 day before as indicated in the original PPEH method
 
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JackSparrow

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primeiro peço desculpas por meus posts desorganizados. Agradeço a todos que enviaram uma mensagem no meu post anterior, vocês são pessoas incríveis.

Só quero dizer que estou em jejum e preparei todas as minhas coisas. Estou com medo, mas animado por não ter mais que acordar nesse pesadelo.

Planejo fazer o ctb em algum momento nas próximas 3-4 horas. Só estou finalizando as coisas.

Coloquei meu método em um post anterior, mas

1. Tome 1000mg de analgésico sem receita
2. Espere 15 minutos e tome 3x meto
3. Prepare 3 xícaras de sn 35g em duas porque sou uma garota plus size
4. Após esperar 40 minutos, tome sn e deite-se

Provavelmente postarei quando beber o sn, mas não tenho certeza se atualizarei depois, porque quero limpar meu telefone.

Decidi usar meu vestido favorito e tomar banho antes. O banho me acalma. Meu YouTuber favorito está jogando um jogo que eu amo. Eu aprecio muito este site. É triste o quão dura a vida pode ser para nós.

Eu sei que alguns de nós são espirituais e outros não. Eu cresci como cristão e ainda tenho Jesus perto do meu coração. Espero vê-lo. Meu CTB não é apenas vê-lo, mas estar em paz. Espero que Jesus me segure em seus braços e me diga que fiz o meu melhor e que ele está orgulhoso. Adeus a todos 💔❤️ e obrigado a todos neste fórum. Seja qual for o caminho que você escolher, espero o melhor.
I hope you achieve your dream PEACE, if you don't, can you tell us about your experience here?
 
JackSparrow

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Suspeito que ela possa ter ido embora.

Estações, desejo a vocês uma linda transição. Obrigada por compartilhar
I don't doubt it, but there's a possibility that she was found unconscious and taken to the hospital, maybe she's hospitalized right now.
 

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