Method Gonna CTB this sunday!!! + thoughts on SN protocol

[SocialSoil]

I just got my SN yesterday, I made a will yesterday, today I lied to my teacher that I am ill and took a sick leave until Monday.
I've discussed all important things with my friends already. I'm gonna spend these last days just being silly and enjoying myself.

So, my plan.
Satuday

• 8:00 - metoclopramide 10 mg
• 16:00 - metoclopramide 10 mg
• 24:00 - metoclopramide 10 mg

Sunday
Start fasting, in case of stomachache take nurofen

• 8:00 - metoclopramide 10 mg
• 16:00 - metoclopramide 10 mg
• 23:00 - paracetamol 10 g
• 23:15 - metoclopramide 30 mg

lay towels on bed under myself
put trash can next to head of the bed
open window

• 23:30 - gastal (antacid) 2 pills

pour water in 3 plastic cups, mix with SN 25g (4 teaspoons?) with 50ml of water in each
before taking SN - mouthwash to numb the mouth
prepare gum to cover the taste
talk with friend on the phone, turn lo-fi stream on laptop

• 24:00 - take SN, lay down

take gum to cover the taste
+ I also have atarax (hydroxyzine) but not sure when is time to take it, so if you have any tips about that I'll be really grateful. also, I have mirtazapine and quetiapine, I pass out in 30 mins after taking them, so maybe it will add to just losing consiousness faster?

I really hope it goes smoothly. Please with me luck. I first understood I have to ctb when I had been just 11 years old, seriously. This is finally going to happen. This miserable life ends on sunday. I can't take it anymore I've done everything and this is not enough to be someone who deserves respect. I just don't care about anything except my friends anymore. Please with me luck...

 

[Praestat_Mori]

(4 teaspoons?)

I would use a scale but the table provided in the SN bible also contains and estimation in tablespoons.

SN Bible Sodium Nitrite Method (Comprehensive Guide SN Method)

Sodium Nitrite (SN) Method Introduction This document is a compilation of different sn information, members inputs, important posts related to sn, recorded suicide cases related to sn, different research on sn and so on. This document also give a full understanding of SN, what it is, how it...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[SocialSoil]

I would use a scale but the table provided in the SN bible also contains and estimation in tablespoons.

SN Bible Sodium Nitrite Method (Comprehensive Guide SN Method)

Sodium Nitrite (SN) Method Introduction This document is a compilation of different sn information, members inputs, important posts related to sn, recorded suicide cases related to sn, different research on sn and so on. This document also give a full understanding of SN, what it is, how it...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Thank you! I somehow forgot about the table.
I understand it's easier to use a scale but I'm seriously so done I can't put myself to wait for another week of delivery. Thank you again

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Good luck with your plan and I hope you find peace.

 

[escape_from_hell]

Wishing you peace.
You seem very organized, it's impressive. I imagine an itinerary like this helps, keeping focused on the next steps to avoid anxiety and dread etc. Do you think so?
I envy that you have friendships you value. Not sure if you're young but you seem sharper than I at whatever age you are, certainly wiser, I should have gone while I had at least the chance to have goodbyes.

 

[depressia]

Sunday may also be my day..anyway good luck...my routine is something like this

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find peace from the suffering, I wish you the best.

 

[piccola anima]

Sono Dispiaciuta che la vita ti abbia portato a questo punto, nessuno dovrebbe soffrire, ma purtroppo non scegliamo di nascere!
Spero tu possa trovare la tua pace

 

[Davey40210]

Hope you find peace OP.

 

[GalacticWarrior777]

Good luck, hope you succeed!

 

[Klimpop]

• 23:00 - paracetamol 10 g

Why so much paracetamol?

 

[Kurai]

I'll be ctbing with sn as well on Sunday, wishing us both gooduck and peace

 

[SocialSoil]

Why so much paracetamol?

oh shi- actually thank you for asking this, I somehow thought that 1000mg (as in Stan's guide + SN Bible) = 10g. It turned out to be 1g. I thought I'm good at math but seems like not really so. Idk what could happen if I actually took 10g. Thank you again! (Like seriously. I'm silly)

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

You plan on talking to your friend after taking the SN? Is the friend reliable, not gonna freak out and call an ambulance for you or something?

 

[TransfemCutter]

Good luck. I hope your passing is safe and peaceful. Hopefully one day I'll catch my own bus and come see the view