For those taking N/SN, what are you planning to do in your last moments?

[RedHarlequin]

I think I'm going to listen to some music I like and maybe document my experience in a goodbye thread. I'm really scared of SI kicking in. What about you?

 

[orlandom]

Gonna step into the ring with my SI

 

[elfgyoza]

Just relax, let the peaceful feeling set in. Enjoy my only moments of happiness

 

[PsychosisGirls]

If we can get our hands on the stuff, I'd imagine I'd listen to music too. Being multiple, I'd say my goodbyes to the others before we pass out, maybe hug them one last time.

 

[nightnightnitrite]

I don't think I'll be playing music because I love silence as weird as that sounds. I hopefully will be looking at some photos and cuddling my favorite stuffed animal until the very end.

 

[orlandom]

I think the last minutes with N and the last minutes with SN are very different.

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

If I can use SN or N, I hope it's warm summer night/very early morning and I can be near lake or sea... I just relax and look that beautiful view. Maybe winter night outside, looking stars and northern lights would be perfect too... I want to be somewhere in nature.

 

[RedHarlequin]

If I can use SN or N, I hope it's warm summer night/very early morning and I can be near lake or sea... I just relax and look that beautiful view. Maybe winter night outside, looking stars and northern lights would be perfect too... I want to be somewhere in nature.

Sounds beautiful:)

 

[Thisgirlwantstosleep]

If it's SN try to take if in conjunction with a sleeping pill because I don't want to be conscious during that.

If it's N, nothing. Swallow it down quickly so I can go.

I'm not one for symbolism or any of that. Life wasn't too special or pleasant don't see why I should make a production out of my death.

 

[hahabye]

I am also planning to ctb in nature, ideally next to a lake, watching the sunset. Probably listening to my favourite classical pieces, holding a picture of my cats in one hand and N in the other with a shot of vodka (read in the PPH that it helps with the aftertaste) and chocolate by my side.

I am also afraid the SI is going to kick in, but I made myself a promise that I'll go through with it and I never break my promisses.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Hoping I can just find a nice spot outdoors to die in and reminisce on the good times before I die.

 

[watchingthewheels]

Listen to music.

 

[Wakawaka]

im not going to prep

im going to play whatever "this is what im going out to" song i happen to remember at the time

either have a smoke or few drinks, maybe take some drugs

then i'll take the dose of sn, i'll have a second dose prepared incase i throw up due to no prep

depending on how im feeling that day i might go outside as i always wanted to ctb under the moonlight

 

[Ghost girl]

I think I'm going to listen to some music I like and maybe document my experience in a goodbye thread. I'm really scared of SI kicking in. What about you?

I plan on listening to nostalgic music, thinking of memories , how my funeral will be and eating my favorite foods. That's my good bye to this world. A celebration of getting revenge on a bad life. Standing up to it and standing my ground by ending it. There comes a time when you have to make the choice to either say no to life or risk things getting bad again. I would rather not risk it.

Hoping I can just find a nice spot outdoors to die in and reminisce on the good times before I die.

That sounds nice, but what about a hotel room? Die in a nice warm bed away from the pain. I think that is ideal.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

That sounds nice, but what about a hotel room? Die in a nice warm bed away from the pain. I think that is ideal.

Would be nice, but the risk is too great of being found and intercepted before death can fully take hold unfortunately. I suppose that depends on the hotel though.

 

[motel rooms]

If it's SN try to take if in conjunction with a sleeping pill because I don't want to be conscious during that.

If it's N, nothing. Swallow it down quickly so I can go.

I'm not one for symbolism or any of that. Life wasn't too special or pleasant don't see why I should make a production out of my death.

I feel the same way. Also, doing pleasant things in the hours prior to attempting to ctb is the best way to strengthen the damn SI, which is the last thing you wanna do

 

[M.M]

Just lay down.

 

[Over&out]

Listen to music, after destroying my phone so I can't call anyone

 

[LastLoveLetter]

I think that having a final "happy" day would fuel my survival instinct and trick me into thinking I can have days like that all the time, when I know from experience that I can't.

I would instead normalise it, and normalise the decision to die, by not drawing any special attention to the day. I would make sure I've done everything I need to do and have my affairs in order, and then ctb at bedtime when I feel ready to fall asleep. Then never have to wake up, and feel the burden of existence weighing me down ever again.

I have answered a similar question before and my answer is still the same. I would have a normal day. I would normalise the decision to die by not drawing extra attention to it, celebrating it or making my final day into something "special."

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Not sure. Maybe music. Pretty sure when I do finally take it, it will be a mix of trepidation and relief as I reflect back on my waste of a life and tell myself, "Its finally over. Now I can rest and let people go whom I care for. Their lives are better now that I am gone and they don't have to worry about me. Finally did something right in my life. For once...." And that will be it. I will have made the best decision for myself and those I love.

 

[quiet.rabbit]

Well, I don't really have much of a choice. I'm planning on just bringing a backpack with a rug or something to lay in the dirty floor (not doing it at home) and bring a stuffed toy with me so I have something to hug and play something that's nice to cry to. Then I might imagine that I'm actually hugging somebody that likes being around me. I sadly will never have that.

 

[JayBot2005]

Lay down and listen to an exit-playlist

 

[WornOutLife]

Well, I would like to say that I would get drunk AF but that's not possible with SN so, I guess I'll just listen to music I love while I'm talking to the people on my livestream!

 

[Smart No More]

I hope to lay back and be at peace. That is the main thing! Say goodbye to my cat. I unfortunately can't say goodbye to my family without alarming them but they will understand due to how sick I am. I will try to leave them some happy last moments to remember if I can.
I have a bit of time to do this as I need to source my supplies/method. My condition is really limiting my ability to do so but I'm working my way through it as best I can. I just really hope for their sake and mine that I manage to get what I need because I don't want to leave an ugly mess or die horribly! If I can just go peacefully that will be all I need and will make everything easier for everybody.

 

[FuneralCry]

If there was a way to me to access any of those methods, I would just relax in my room and listen to the song my username is named after (funeral cry) as it is about welcoming death. I would just be relieved it is all over.

 

[RedHarlequin]

SI is survival instinct. It is used to describe something that kicks in shortly before a suicide attempt even though you can be logically determined to commit suicide and have all the right reasons.
I'm sorry about your cat! I also have a lot of things I feel bad about not being able to do. I know that it's not my fault, that it is an illness, and that is what I could tell you too. Still it sucks every time my partner has to go shopping alone or do even always have to do such simple tasks as water the plants because I am not able to do it anymore.

 

[lanax09]

SI is suicide instinct. It is used to describe something that kicks in shortly before a suicide attempt even though you can be logically determined to commit suicide and have all the right reasons.
I'm sorry about your cat! I also have a lot of things I feel bad about not being able to do. I know that it's not my fault, that it is an illness, and that is what I could tell you too. Still it sucks every time my partner has to go shopping alone or do even such simple thinks as water the plants because I am not able to do it anymore.

sorry to be the grammar police but I think it actually stands for survival instinct

 

[sm20]

I think I'm going to listen to some music I like and maybe document my experience in a goodbye thread. I'm really scared of SI kicking in. What about you?

I'd watch a movie called Paddleton about a terminally ill cancer patient who decides to legally euthanize himself, I'd plan the timing so I drink the SN the moment the guy in the movie does.

 

[RedHarlequin]

sorry to be the grammar police but I think it actually stands for survival instinct

Thanks you're right!

 

[landojustwannactb]

I'd watch a movie called Paddleton about a terminally ill cancer patient who decides to legally euthanize himself, I'd plan the timing so I drink the SN the moment the guy in the movie does.

Gangstah!