Venting Everything is difficult

[123die]

No one gives a shit about me. And the people who say they do, well they don't act like it. People say they want to be my friend but they treat me like shit. I have barely any actual privacy. Nobody who I have feelings for ever reciprocates my feelings. I'm always the one putting in all the effort and not getting it back. I'm having a major anorexia relapse and it's getting to me. I need somebody to hold me. Like now. Or I won't make it to the end of the week.

 

[Boochky]

@123die I'm sorry you're feeling that way. I'm holding you tenderly in my heart with so much love. Don't think about getting all the way through the week, just take baby steps.

 

[123die]

@123die I'm sorry you're feeling that way. I'm holding you tenderly in my heart with so much love. Don't think about getting all the way through the week, just take baby steps.

Thank you. I have a kid, I have to be prepared for shit

 

[Boochky]

@123die Ah I see. Well, I'm still sending you good vibes.

 

[123die]

Why the title of this thread get changed??!

 

[JustAboutDone]

Don't know?

How are things going today?

 

[reveriewong]

Your child cares for you and needs you. Your son is attending a good daycare. You're going back to school soon.

Things might be hard, but there are also things to live for.

 

[123die]

Don't know?

How are things going today?

I honestly don't know yet. All I can think about is the boy I like who seems to like me back, and memorizing songs for when I perform, but I'm too anxious to focus on the songs. I feel really alone.

 

[JustAboutDone]

I know it's not much as it's only the internet and not real life but there are people on here who will listen and not judge. You have your boy that is a good thing in your life, you have been through an awful lot for such a young person x. Just try to take things just a little bit at a time. A song and a hug today - that's plenty x

 

[21Neberg]

People do care for you. Your son loves you very much and though he may not say/show it sometimes, he truly does love you to the end of the galaxy. Feelings of loneliness and helplessness are pure torture and I hope you do find people who can support you. I haven't found that person myself yet. (In real life ofcourse)

 

[123die]

I know it's not much as it's only the internet and not real life but there are people on here who will listen and not judge. You have your boy that is a good thing in your life, you have been through an awful lot for such a young person x. Just try to take things just a little bit at a time. A song and a hug today - that's plenty x

I mean yeah but I'm too anxious to talk to ppl??
I'm trying to do that but everything is overwhelming. (Also I don't have anyone who will give me a hug)

 

[123die]

People do care for you. Your son loves you very much and though he may not say/show it sometimes, he truly does love you to the end of the galaxy. Feelings of loneliness and helplessness are pure torture and I hope you do find people who can support you. I haven't found that person myself yet. (In real life ofcourse)

He can't talk yet lmao. He's a toddler, tantrums every two minutes.
I do too but every day that passes with nothing it seems more and more unlikely. (And j hope u can find that person too)

 

[JustAboutDone]

I mean yeah but I'm too anxious to talk to ppl??
I'm trying to do that but everything is overwhelming. (Also I don't have anyone who will give me a hug)

Awww :-( your little boy will I'm sure. I know it's not the same as a real grown up hug but it's affection from someone who loves and needs you xx