Does anyone have kids and feel guilty about their thoughts?

[prepetuallyperplexed]

I have a son that I love more than anything. He's the only thing keeping me from CTB

 

[Adamsnolife]

I thankfully don't have any children. Not that I didn't want to have one but with me wanting to ctb since 21, i didn't feel it was right.

 

[GarageKarate07]

I will leave a grown child behind. It's sad but I've made my peace with it. What if your kids were older like 32? Wouldn't it still be bad? Everyone says kids as in young children but you are always going to be someone's baby. I know mine always will be no matter the age.

 

[JustAMatterOfTime]

No and would not breed due to my no doubt defective genes let alone my complete incapibility of being able to look after a baby. I do have pets though.

 

[RedHarlequin]

No even though I'm 29 now I have always known I never wanted kids.
It is painful enough to leave my family and my partner behind, I cannot imagine how difficult it is to leave a child.

 

[Bat 17]

Yes I have children and they are what stops me acting on my suicidal thoughts. I've accepted that I need to put a brave face on it for their sakes, at least until they are fully grown. Sometimes it feels like living out some kind of prison sentence, but it is what it is. They are worth it.

 

[russlinjimmies]

I have a grown child and I still feel incredibly guilty when I consider leaving them behind. I thought once they were grown it would be easier, but it's not entirely easier to consider.

I wish I had never had a child. Not because I don't love them, but I regret bringing them into this world, especially with my struggles with mental illness. On one hand I think the sooner I'm gone the less impact my mental state will have. On the other I feel like I have a responsibility to continue to provide since I brought them into the world, even though they're grown.

It's definitely something I struggle with.