Venting does anyone else feel like god shouldve given your life to someone less fortunate?

[fizzywater]

My family isn't rich, but we never really struggled financially. I went to private schools, had a bunch of extracurriculars like ballet, piano, singing, martial arts, all that shit. I also had private tutors for subjects I struggled with and for ones I was interested in. Basically, my parents had enough money to let me do the things I wanted. This may not seem like much to some, but I live in a third world where half the population fall under the lower class bracket, so I consider myself blessed and I'm thankful that I don't have to worry about food not being on the table.

But the thing is, I don't know why I was given this life. I don't deserve it. I don't have any special talents or notable achievements. I am unworthy of the money my parents provide me with. The fruits of their labor and hard work are wasted on me, an incompetent and useless daughter. The other day, my friend's younger brother managed to pass the exams for this prestigious university (kind of like an Ivy League for comparison) after studying his ass off for months. But the tuition fee was expensive, so he applied for a full scholarship. I don't know much about the details, but the application was rejected, and he was3 forced to give it up. According to my friend, he locked himself in his room and cried for a whole day. I never knew the dude personally, but I felt as if I stole that opportunity from him. If only he had been born into my family instead of me, he would've had a chance to attend and fulfill his dreams. This life of mine, he deserves it more than I do. Why was I the one chosen? Why not him who had worked so hard, who tried his best? why was i even born, what purpose do i serve, why me????

Does anyone else feel the same way? Like… having a wonderful family and a wonderful life, but feeling like it's all wasted on you because you have nothing special to offer?

 

[3rdworldsadness]

No, my family is horrible and terribly religious, they believe in women should stay at home and women has no right to speak, we struggle with financial and my mom is fucking abusive. If someone gets my life theirlife would be terrible but yeah in healthwise i can give my body to someone to live a life like donating organ but it isnt that possible where im from.

 

[chudeatte]

not really my life specifically, like my situation, but my life as in where I am in society. I live in a first world country, im physically healthy, I went to school, I have opportunities ahead of me. but I dont want that. meanwhile there are severely disabled people, children who are suffering from starvation and abuse, people in war zones, women everywhere who are treated as less than animals who have dreams and aspirations that would do anything to get them, but because of their situations they can't. I feel terrible im wasting life like this. I wish I could give it to someone who deserved it more than me