Discussion Does anybody think they have a "petty" reason to CTB?

[NotSalmon]

Do you ever think that your CTB reasons aren't "good" enough and that you think many other people seem to suffer more than you do?
I don't suffer from many illnesses or anything that guarantees my life is fucked, I'm simply just dissatisfied with life and myself and overwhelmed by everything, especially life itself and the real world. I believe I could have a bright future ahead of me but that just doesn't matter some days because I will lay there living in the past, thinking about how life was so much better 2-3 years ago, that I was a piece of shit for thinking otherwise back then. I throw so many great things and opportunities away just because I for whatever reason don't want them anymore and if I don't do so then the universe does it for me. I don't understand why I can't simply let myself enjoy life, but instead I hyperfixate on death every other day or week and "CTB" is always on the backburner of my mind no matter what and I oftentimes just get curious to see what might happen if I do.

 

[waterbed]

Yes, all the time. There's people who've been abused, bullied, thrown on the street etc. but I just don't like living. It's so exhausting and it's generally just too much to handle.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Nah, my reasons for wanting an earlier death is valid and I believe that anybody would want the same if they stepped in my shoes

 

[KillingPain267]

Yes, over a divorce. I haven't gotten over it 12+ months. I feel ridiculous wanting to kill myself over it, but I'm sad every day and have no goals in life anymore, and I most definitely don't want to wage slave for half a century more for no reason.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I suspect there may be many people who wouldn't think my reasoning is enough to want out. I don't care though. I don't need their approval.

There are going to be countless people who have it far worse than me. If I could give them my life and my opportunities- so long as I was released, I'd do it. We can't though. I feel pity for them of course but, I don't feel guilty as such. It isn't my fault I'm alive.

I probably should do more than I do to relieve the suffering of others. eg. I will buy cheap goods likely made in unpleasant and unfair working conditions. I expect most of us do in fact. But- I'm exploited too. We're all part of this shitty exploitative system. To some extent, I'd be doing the environment and third world countries a favour by CTB.

Seriously- practically speaking, what difference will it make to someone living destitute whether I'm alive or not? If we truly cared about the impact our lives have on others- there are in fact things we could practically do to lessen that impact. Living more charitable, less exploitative lives could actually make a real, practical difference to them. Otherwise, whether we are alive or dead likely makes no difference at all to them.