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i am so good at not being very good its crazy
- May 6, 2023
- 23
what the title says. i doubt it's going to be many people who say yes, but do you think anything could ever make you stop looking to ctb? what is it? me personally, no.
sounds like you still can find some joy in existing yet. wishing you all the best i hope you do find itgenuinely dont know
im stuck in this weird gray area where i do see some hope in life, but there's always that thought of "everything's better if i had just died" plaguing me regularly.
there are times id just sit on the ledge of my balcony with this idea of:
if i fall, thats it, i did it. if i get off then i guess ill just have to keep going and try another day.
ive been thinking of DIYing a ketimine treatment. seems easy enough to buy, as my friends do it recreationally from time to time. just not sure how to go about it lolThere are a few newer treatment options (TMS, DBS, ketamine