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noname223

Angelic
Aug 18, 2020
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I can remember it must have been summer 2016. I had really extreme depression with extreme severe psycho-somatic pain. It felt like something is tearing me apart. This feeling accompanied me for 5 months to this point. The medication i had caused severe side effects. I do not want to go in details but i had a little operation without anesthesia. The operation caused severe pain as well. I took a lot of meds to sleep. But it did not help. The pain was so immense that I cried the whole night for many many hours without a break. I ran in my apartment back and forth. Because I was extremely desperate.
 
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GenesAndEnvironment

GenesAndEnvironment

Autistic loser
Jan 26, 2021
5,739
The day I was born, I don't remember it at all though. :sunglasses:
 
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Mentalmick

Mentalmick

IMHOTEP!!!
Nov 30, 2020
2,050
The day my mother died and I didn't. What I tried didn't work and I ended up in hospital for 18 months.
 
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Bootleg Astolfo

Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
656
Yee, still have flashbacks and panic attacks to this day because of it.
 
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booray

Can’t do this anymore
Jan 28, 2021
394
Yes, though I was so delusional due to drug use that I didn't realize at the time that it was the worst day of my life.
 
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Into The Void

Into The Void

Student
Mar 10, 2021
196
The day my mother died and I didn't. What I tried didn't work and I ended up in hospital for 18 months.
OMG why so long?





It took me a while to narrow it down, but I think it was the day my brother died. And how he died was fucked up. He died an alcoholic.
 
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luten

work, love, and learn
Feb 25, 2021
507
1.i came home, was out with a friend, at a club...it was around 11:30PM, when i parked my car in-front of the house, my father came out to my car, and told me my mother died (cancer). Her funeral was also one of my worst days. I was 19yrs old.

2.I was called out to my fathers house, because he was suicidal, found him unconscious on my childhood bed, he OD on my morphine and amitriptyline. He was on a ventilator for 7 days.

3.Other incident, went for holiday overseas , when i text my best friend he did not answer, called his sister, and she said he died of a heart attack. I phoned his sister while I walked in a mall, i turned into a zombi. I missed his funeral.

4. When my dog had to be euthanized, it was pretty traumatizing...
 
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fred farkle

fred farkle

Specialist
Dec 17, 2020
346
Certainly.
 
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DisillusionedDragon

DisillusionedDragon

Pessimist/Antinatalist
Nov 25, 2020
172
Probably not, trauma really messes with your (long term) memory. Sometimes it feels like I barely have one. And generally I have always repressed traumatic memories, at least after working through them, which honestly works for me. Forgetting is good. At least in such cases.
 
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lofticries

lofticries

obedear
Feb 27, 2021
1,470
Fuck, there are so many worst days of my life they are all interchangeable at this point. I'll name the one that I'm comfortable with naming here that still brings tears to my eyes.

The day my cat died from a tumor in his tummy. Thank god we were at a clinic though so he could be put down. But seeing my even tempered cat in such pain really stuck with me. To the point where I can't even remember the better times with him. Pictures of him don't even bring me any joy and I honestly don't get any comfort in having his ashes. I would have been okay with the veterinarian putting me down as well on that day. Pretty much the only friend I've ever had. Was with me during a lot of shit times(the bullying, emotional abuse from my parents, and other things that went terrible in my life). Probably saved me from a lot gritty ctb attempts that would have no doubt left me in a worse state of life.
 
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Sslsh

Sslsh

Experienced
Jan 29, 2020
293
Too many such days to count
 
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ClairyFairy

ClairyFairy

Wizard
Jan 22, 2021
623
My worst day (so far) was the day my best friend died
 
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S like suicide

S like suicide

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,435
Difficult to choose one, there have been so many ... especially starting with my first depressive crisis in 2015.The worst ones surely involve my family ... when they yelled at me horrible things and got very angry until they hit me etc...
 
soap

soap

Pronounced dead
Jan 14, 2021
57
Worst day was in early april this year. Basically spent it crying and rolling on the floor, bad memories and shit health just became all too real that day.

These last 6 months were hell in general.
 
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Sprite_Geist

Sprite_Geist

NULL
May 27, 2020
1,584
For the last 2-3 years up until the current time every day has (and will be) the worst day.
 
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return2dreamland

return2dreamland

₊✩‧₊ ˃ᴗ˂
May 16, 2021
58
trauma brain made me forget what could be my worst day but i wholeheartedly believe that every day since i was 13 has been hell.
 
lanax09

lanax09

Experienced
Apr 17, 2021
231
-the day my grandfather died
-the day when I was hospitalised after a previous ctb plan was snitched on and I got a text from my best friend that she wasn't allowed to talk to me anymore because her family thought I was a bad influence
-the day I was 11 and crying at a bus stop and realised I was suicidal
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,164
Ufff, I've had many terrible days but the worst...

Ummm...

I think it would be when I woke up from a coma in a hospital, two days later after my failed attempt and saw my dad crying and broken-hearted.
I just can't forget that moment and he's the only reason why I'm still in this world.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
37,034
There was one day last year where I was in quite a bit of pain and I had a huge row with my parents. I wish I could forget it but my mind wont let me do that. I feel like I never have any good days, I just kind of exist really, and I know that nothing will change. It is hard to distinguish many days that were worse than the usual.
 
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Emilia1012

Student
Apr 10, 2021
102
Everyday seem like the worst day but for me I think it was today. I wanted to ctb actually. Talking to my dad and some friends helped and I didn't
 

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